Keith angst go burrrr
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TW: sh,blood
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No one's POV
He didn't know how to feel... It's like he doesn't feel anything..
Everything was fine tho...everyone accepted him for being glara, he has found his mother and has his boyfriend that he loves so much.
So why doesn't he feel fine?..
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Keith's POV
The team is starting to notice..their starting to notice how I show no mercy on the evil guards and how much rougher I've been during training.
I just don't feel anything... I can't feel anything... I don't know what to feel.
It's hard.. it's so very hard.
I've been clean for years now.. I've gotten better, I let my walls down, I trusted people! I should've gotten better! I should've been better!
I hit my head against the wall, I'm pretty sure lance or shiro would've heard it but I don't care. The crisome red blood started trickling down my forehead.
I walked into my bathroom, I started at myself in the mirror, god why am I so ugly..?
I started at the blood that continues to trickle down my forehead, I started at it and then my blade. It wouldn't hurt to just do it once right?....
.......
I didn't just do it once... 1 turned into 2, 2 turned into 4 you get the idea..
But I felt it.. I felt the pain shooting up my arm, I felt it and I loved it.
Shiro would be so mad at me..
I would probably get found out but I couldn't care anymore. Out of anyone I thought who would find me it wasn't shrio or lance it was my own mother..
"Kit! I have a new human game- Keith?" She asked, I felt bad... After do many years of not being with my own mother this is the first thing she sees me do
"Kit what are you doing?.." she asked carefully, I don't know if she knows I'm hurting myself or not..
"Nothing mom.." I mumbled but she grabbed my wrist and kanked me up, I yelped in pain
"You can't trick your own mother kit, why would you do this to yourself!?" She asked me, I looked down at my shoes, great I've disappointed my mother now..
"You didn't disappointed me kit, I what to know why you did it" she said like she just read my thoughts
"I wanted to feel something.." I responded with tears in my eyes, between being isolated for half my life, losing the people I love and galra instincts I just let it all out and cried into my mother's shoulder
"Shhh" she comforted me, I gently ran her hands through my hair as I continued to sob
"How about I make you a traditional galra dish!" She spoke up trying to lighten the mood.
"Sure mom"
