J O S H
Hospitals suck!
I am already sick of the way they smell and not being able to move the way I am used to. Everyone has visited me over the past week except for one person. I do not even understand why I even bother anymore. The only thing good about this whole situation is that my Cowboy is here. He even had them bring another bed into the massive room and I wake up cuddled up into his embrace. Okay, maybe hospitals aren't so bad after all if I get him like this.
How am I ever going to be able to sleep alone again?
"Are you okay?" His gruff morning voice stirs my body to life every time. I lift my head to look at him and his nose crinkles and brows knit together. "Why wouldn't I be?" I asked confused, his lips linger on my forehead, and I close my eyes to cherish this moment... this feeling because it's not going to last. He shrugs his shoulders and gently pushes me off of him to get up.
"That was mean." I pout crossing my arms and he shakes his head and scoffs, but I don't miss the hint of a smile forming on his beautiful face. "Well, I guess you just want to stay here forever then." I try to jump up but wince in pain. "What the fuck Josh?!" I try and fail at trying to be nonchalant at the scolding he is giving me.
"I'm sorry." I put my head down but it doesn't stay down for long, when I feel him tilt my chin up. I look up into his eyes and I can see so much in them, so many emotions in those damn eyes that it makes me dizzy. "You need to take it easy still. You're not invincible okay." I nod my head and he gives me that killer smile. "That's a good boy." Holy fuck! The way he says that does so many things to me at this moment.
"Cowboy" I whisper, he cups my face and my eyes flutter shut just from his touch. "My spider monkey." My heart pounds hard in my chest even at the damn nickname. Oh, I would scale up your body right now if I could, bouncing hard off that monstrous dick. I hear a deep growl and my eyes shoot open.
"Behave Josh. I can only have so much self-control." Shit! I said that out loud. I don't have time to ponder on it when his lips slam against mine. I moan loudly into his mouth as his tongue does wonders to massaging mine. I could kiss him forever. My hands go into his hair and brings him closer to me.
"Joshua Harlan!" The voice booms and I push Ryder away from me, but I lose my balance and almost fall off the bed. Luckily Ryder catches me and winks at me. I almost giggle until I realize who is here. "I see you got another bodyguard roped into your shenanigans." I can feel my eyes tear up. No hello son, are you okay?
"Fuck off!" Ryder sneers then looks at me, but I just shake my head at him because I know how my dad can be. He turns around fast on his heel. "Your son has been in here a fucking week and now you show your face." I look at my dad and see him using a cane. I want to ask him how he is doing but I bite my tongue.
"I could have you arrested for assaulting my son." Is he out of his fucking mind? Ryder stumbles back a moment he looks at me and then at my dad. But that second, he looked at me I lost it. I don't want to see him look so broken. I get up on unsteady legs and hold onto the bed for support as I walk towards my father still going off. "I saw the way he pushed you off of him."
"Enough!" My voice shakes but it is still strong. "You have no right to say shit to me or to him." I look at Ryder and he has a concern look on his face for me. "You have done nothing but lie to me. I've been here for a week and nothing til now." He goes to say something, but I put my hand up to stop him. "I am so done with all of it. You threaten to cut me off, then you lie saying there was no threat, when apparently there fucking was!" My voice starts rising and my whole-body shakes. "This man right here" I point at Ryder, and he holds onto me, so I do not fall. "Protected me, where the fuck was my father." The tears fall down, and I turn away from him, because I don't want to feel weak in front of him.
"Josh...I."
"Just go dad. I am done."
I don't even look at my dad as I bury my face into Ryder's chest. When I don't hear him say anything back my heart breaks some more. "He's gone." Ryder whispers in my ear as I let out a sob from the hurt, I have felt over the years since my mother's passed. "Why?" I cry out as he rubs my back in a soothing matter and I cling onto his shirt.
"I don't know." Is all he says as he holds me against him as I let it all out. Once my tears have dried, I wipe my face and look up at him. "Thank you for everything." I give him a small smile and lean up and kiss his lips. There is no urgency just a tenderness that I have longed for.
Fuck! I love him!
I gasp as the realization dawns on me. No, no, no! This is going to ruin everything, he'll leave, and I will be heartbroken. "Let's get out of here." He smiles at me, and I nod my head, I give him a smile even if my heart feels heavy at the moment. Ryder helps me into my clothes, and I love the feel of his hands on me.
"You can't deny that it didn't feel good to tell him off." Ryder chuckles and even though it still hurts I do laugh and give a genuine smile. "It actually did." I look up at him as he wheels me out of the hospital and there at the drop off is my girl. She rushes over to me and hugs me and Ryder grunts.
"Let's get you home."
My smile drops at the mention of home. I honestly don't know where that is at this moment. "He's coming with me." I look to Ryder, but his face is hard and cold. I wonder what made his mood change so drastically.
"He's my best friend and he is coming with me."
I start laughing because the way they are glaring at each other is so damn funny. "Well, you all actually need to come with me. I just got a text with River, and he has some news. I think he might have found something." He smirks like he has won and I shake my head and smile.
"You did that on purpose." I say as he helps me into the rental car.
"Maybe" He gives me a cheesy smile and how I love seeing him like this.
"You're so cheesy."
He squeezes my thigh as he takes off towards the hotel he booked, but he never stayed in. "You, Josh are going to pay for earlier." I know what he means as I can see the lust in his eyes. I gulp and let out a shaky laugh because everything changes now that I realize that I am in love with him.
"Who says I will let you fuck me again."
He slams on the breaks but his arm flies across my chest to protect me from getting more hurt.
"What?"
This time I give a wholehearted laugh at how wounded he looks. I take a deep breath and look at him. "Don't you know by now that it is me who is in control." I smirk at him. I cannot let him know that I fucking love him. "I say when, how, where and if you get to fuck me." His chest heaves up and down and I think he likes that more than I was hoping for. "Just get us to your friend so we can find out what the hell is going on." He steps on the gas after cars honk at him and growls.
I love when he does that...hell I love it when he does anything pretty much. I really need to get these feelings under control, or it will be my undoing.
A/N: I will try and have another chapter updated tomorrow, if not I will be updating again on Sunday. Hope you are enjoying the story so far. Would love to hear your thoughts on it.
Until next time,
💞Lexi💞
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Never Say Never
General Fiction(Completed)Book 5 of the It Just Happened Series. (This can be read as a stand-alone book, however there is mentions of the characters in the other books as well.) Ryder Dawson has just come home from his last tour of duty broken and lost. He does n...
