Why me? (Jack Gilinsky fan fiction)

Chapter 39

JACKS POV

Johnson, Brigid, Sammy, Cynthia, and I hopped into my jeep and I started driving. I was so worried about Alex that I didn't realize how fast I was going. "Jack slow down we can't help Lex if we are in the hospital too." Brigid said seriously.

We made it to the hospital and I sprained in to see Nate sitting in the waiting chairs. "Nate what happened?"

"I don't know man one minute we were having fun then the next Alex start freaking out and she passed out."

"Alex Lanson." the doctor called. we all immediately stood up.

"That's us." I said a little nervous.

"Ok well Ms.Lanson had an anxiety attack which caused her to pass out."

"What cause it." I asked.

"I'm not sure Alex is not being very responsive right now. Maybe one of you can go in and talk to her." Everyone immediately looked at me.

"I'll go doctor." I said walking towards Alex's room. Once I walked in I saw Alex staring at the wall.

"Hey baby girl." I said trying to comfort her. No response came from her.

"I heard you had another anxiety attack. You wanna tell me what happened? Even though I already knew this was about her dead aunt. I held her hand. About 5 minutes later she finally started.

"Jack... I dont know what's wrong with me. I see her everywhere. it's like she is haunting me but not in a bad way. It just freaks me out ya know." I cried.

"Oh baby. Listen to me when I say this. There is nothing wrong with you. a you are perfect the way you are and never let anyone tel you otherwise. Alex maybe your imagination is taking over and that's why you see her everywhere. You just miss her." I said.

"Jack?"

"Yes babygirl?"

"Sometimes do you ever want to die. Like you wake up and you wish you didn't?"

"Alex. Please tell me you have never thought about this."

"If I tell you I haven't I would be lying to you." She responded.

I started crying.

"Alex please don't think about that. Ever. You mean so much to me and I could never lose you.

"Jack I have to tell you something."

"What is it babygirl?"

"Jack... right after my aunt died I became suicidal. I tried to commit twice but they both failed. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you I just... didn't want you to look at me differently. Im so sorry." she was bawling by now and so was I.

"Please don't ever think about killing yourself. Ever. Because if you ever died. I would die with you. I love you Alex."

I was trying to keep my feelings from showing but I ended up crying right in front of Lex.

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