IT HAS BEEN FOREVER!!!!!!
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How are you wonderful people!!?
I am so, so, so, so -
( x 100000 x 10363920 x 16383910 x 836381910101111200000029383891910101 x 2) - sorry that i haven't updated in so long! I have had a wonderful host student from Japan, so i have been very busy hosting!
Anyways, please forgive me!!
So, here we are again! I feel terrible about the long wait! I know what it's like to come back to a story after a long time, you sort of disconnect a little and what happened last becomes a little blurry, hey!?
Well, i'll help you out!
So, in chapter 6, Audrey went to her counselling session, and the lady there, (who Audrey very much dislikes) forced her to tell her things of the past. which kind of messed Audrey up as it started a chain reaction and sort of 'unlocked' all of Audrey's abuse memories that she had sort of tried to block out. So the seventh chapter was a flash back, just giving a little idea of the stuff that her 'mother' did to her. the last little bit was;
As warm tears fell silently from the corners of my eyes, I heard the tiny door knob twist and unlock, under the will and hand of a murderer.
So yeah! That's just a little update! Hope that helped!
Thank you to everyone who has commented, voted or spread the word! It means so much to me! I am forever grateful!
So here goes! I hope you enjoy! Feel free to leave a comment or feedback!!
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~Littlefuzzypeach
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~Part 8~
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The same night as the evil hawk unlocked the chamber to my darkest memories, my seven year old self burnt bright in my mind.
I rolled haphazidly onto my side and bit the crisp white hospital pillow case covering, wanting so much not to remember.
Forget.
Forget.
Forget.
I listened to the slow rise and fall of Sivannas peaceful breathing trying not to think too much.
Forget.
Forget.
Forget.
I could hear hush whispers beyond my walls of tired nurses as they tried to hold back an old man, attempting to escape. His voice was louder than the others, confused by his denial of exit.
Out side the wind howled, but for the first time in a few weeks it wasn't raining. The sky was clear, allowing a silky white shadow from the moon to leak down into the cell.
Or so I call it.
I watched as tiny dust mites danced mid air in its presence.
Moonlight dancing.
The time my "mother" had thrown me out. The time she had forced me to sleep out side. The time the moon was my only company. My only Safety...
Stop.
I couldn't do it. Go there again. Although she wasn't really my mother, I thought of her as so. Because she was always around. Not in a good way, but still, she had always been there. Something a mother is supposed to do, whether you're watching movies together or being hit by her.
As much as I thought I loved Sivanna, nothing could stop the angry feeling from creeping up. Why hadn't she come sooner? Why hadn't she tried to come and find me when dad died? Why did she leave me alone with the crazy? She sure was trying to make up for the time, telling me that she's already rented a new house for us to live in together, that was just around the corner form where I'd be going to school. But what school, I didn't know. She told me I'd get my own bathroom, bedroom, walk in wardrobe, and that we'd move in as soon as I was allowed out.
Thinking of houses made me start to hyperventilate.
The blood stained walls. The dusty floor boards. The broken furniture. Blood, blood, blood.
I tried desperately to untangle my self from the intwine of white sheets. But with two unmoveable legs, it wasn't as easy as to just kick them off. I shifted, bending forwards, stomach touching thighs. Reaching round my feet to grab the sheets and rip them off. The cold night air rushed over my body, cooling the rising temperature, due to thoughts from a time back then. I fell back, head hitting pillow, staring at the bright, eye squinting lights that hung off my drip machine, focusing on their rapid beeping. Staring at them for minutes at a time, stained the colours into my pupils. For the next minute, no matter where I looked, they were there.
Just like my past.
I didn't want to go back to the councillor. I didn't want her to scribble into my personal life anymore than she already had. She was ripping out my insides, and placing them back in a different order. I hated the feeling of discomfort.
Out side my door, the old man started crying.
Shrill sobs filled the halls, echoing up every leadway. I harshly pressed my face deep into my pillow, wanting badly to block it out.
Crying was an escape, an emotional call for help. I knew every tear that fell from my eyes, although I'd lost count of how many. Way too many to remember. I scrunched my fists up, then flared them out, repeating the cycle, in hope of a distraction.
Up. Out. Up out.
That's all I had to focus on. Nothing else mattered. Nothing else mattered. Forget, forget, forget.
Jesus Christ since when did forgetting become so hard to do?
Forget forget forget. Freeze the memories. They don't matter. For Gods sake, forget how to breath if that's what it takes.
But, that was out of question. The second I stopped breathing, the machine would zip me back to life again, alerting the nurses in an instant. Since the day I arrived I'd been on strict watch. Security cameras catching me, eyes studying my wrists, nervous receptionist when I went to the front desk. I felt strongly like a criminal, expected to attack at anytime.
My eyelids started drooping, The need for rest strong on my body.
Stay awake.
You know what will happen when you close your eyes. You'll remember everything.
Nothing will stop it all from coming back when you can't control it.
Don't sleep. Don't sleep.
But for the first time since I came here,
my nightmares weren't about the boy with
blonde hair and pale eyes.
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Sorry again everyone for the long wait! Thank you for sticking with me!! Thanks so much!
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Part 9 coming soon!!
Stay awesome!!
~Littlefuzzypeach
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