I got it, I got her . everything I have ever wanted I have. Yet why does it feel like it waste? Or like I Dont deserve it? Why does it feel like I dead instead of alive. I'm lying next to her. Her beautiful curly hair. Her loud and very crazy laugh. Hearing her go on and on about how we Need to make sure that there is applesauce in the house everyday or else she'll freak. Shes happy . I look at at her and I'm suppose to feel happy. But yet all I feel is sadness. All I see is hell. I don't want this . I Dont want to have her. I killed someone to save her, because I loved her? I went to the bathroom to wash up before breakfast.
" hey honey bear"
" ashley , didn't we tell you to leave us alone?"
" yes but I need to tell you one more thing, after the deed is done meaning the deed you guys did all night, you lose it you lose it all. Everything you felt for her. Everything you cared about. So basically, you killed someone , for someone you are never gonna love again.
