|The secrets we take to grave|✔︎

23|Anubhav's words 7|

Song for the chapter: In the stars by Benson Boone

I throw my head back in the bed behind me as my knees buckle beneath me. A deep long sigh escapes my throat.

I wish I had words to depict how much I hated myself for ruining his life. Maybe I was the one who pushed him off the edge. That is the reason that his last piece of writing also has my mention in it.

"I am sorry Anubhav. I am sorry I failed you. I failed your brother. And most of all I have failed my emotions" A lone tear drop escapes the corner of my eyes. I scroll down his drive when I see the first rough drafts of Us in the two worlds. I choose to skim through his grammatical errors. His innocent take on love makes me laugh and cry.

Strange how I have never paid heed to any of that while he was alive. There is so much more I could have told him if the time was different.

My fingers keep scrolling.

Until they freeze.

As I read the name of the document.

My heart picks up it's pace once again. I still have no idea why he named this document file as The very last of me.

Was that his suicide note?

There was no idea I would be stopping now. Even if it questions everything I have believed so far.

Epilogue

Just when I had thought that the finishing chapter of my agonizing tale of love and death was done. Life bounced up with another bolt from the blue.
How could I ever finish my literature without an epilogue?Have I ever done that before?

So the same goes true here.

It was a Sunday morning when there was a soft tap on my door.

It was strange because no one visited me for months now. I didn't bring girls anymore, hardly threw success parties, and my drinking issues made my neighbors avoid me. Sia has been the only guest to visit and own this apartment.

The knock made me sprint on my heels, dismissing the fact that Sia has actually now broken all ties with me and no matter how many texts I send to a contact who blocked me, she wasn't coming.

I opened the door with shock and dismay. "Neena?"

"Anu baba" She cupped my cheeks like before. "Won't you invite your maasi in?"

Another bombshell dropped. The one I had been hiding all along.

"Come in Nimi" I told her. She seemed to be displeased at the state of my apartment.

"It seems like years of conditioning from your father had finally gotten you to call me by my name even in private?" She asked, taking a seat on my couch. "Leena would be so displeased if she were alive. I might have been born to a poor father but I was your mother's first cousin baba. Your dadu took me because my father didn't bore my education"

Why was she saying it all over again?She knew that I knew.

"Its just habit Nimi. You know that out of all the people in the world, I respect you the most. You have sacrificed everything in order to look after Maa. You never left her side even at the new house."