Gone

Chapter 14

My worst nightmare. Why am I standing in front of my rapist, or in other words my father! "Please don't do this to me. I've behaved. I'm a changed person I promise."
" don't pull that bullshit with me. Now who's your daddy."
"please." I hardly whimper. Wait he's dead. Does this mean... No not yet! I can't think like that. "keep your fucking filthy hands off of me. Your a jackass. I hate you. You took something that cannot be replaced. Your a horrible man, not including a horrible fucking father."
"You do understand, little girl, I don't want your body. I'm going to kick your ass though!" He laughs. Hell no. I start running as fast as I can. I'm a druggy but still fit. My father on the other hand is a fat ass from all of the alcohol. I start to fly. I'm not in heaven. I'm in hell! I know I have to be good or I will stay. Then I wake up. Where the fuck am I. " Where the fuck am I?!"
"Your at the hospital."
"Get away from me, mom. You didn't care then. So don't act like you do now."
"Ellie, are you talking about your dad."
"Don't call him that. He's just Kevin to me. Do you not know what he did to me. I'm no a virgin. Why do you think I fucking ran away. Your just as bad as him."
"I know you know that's not true. And it only counts as sex if it's consensual!"
"Your a bitch. Please just call Noah for me."
"He's in jail. You have to testify or he'll be able to do it again."
"Well can I talk to him in jail?"
"He can come here. I'll tell the doctors your up and you need to see him to clear some things up."
"Thanks." With that she leaves. I've never been close to my parents. People call me the rebel child nobody wants, including my own parents!
"Elizabeth, are you sure that's what's best for you? It's kind of soon, don't you think?"
"Yes I'm sure. It's not to soon. It's fall now, it was summer when this happened. I know it's been at least 4 months. I'm not a dumbass like some people!"
"Okay. I'll call the station now."
"Thanks." he left. I fall asleep and only wake to someone's hand grab my own. "Ellie. I'm so so sorry. I don't know what took over me. I was high off the good heroine. You showed me that place."
"Noah, I'm fine. I know you didn't mean it. I could tell you were high. That's why I said no. I love you. I'm not going to testify. I'm going to drop the charges. I forgive you!"
"What did you say Ellie?" My mother. You've got to be kidding!
"Mom, I'm old enough to decide what I want and what I think is best for me. Your not my mom anymore. I'm not a baby and I will not need you to ruin my life. You took something away from me. It wasn't only Kevin. I had no childhood thanks to you! I think you should go back home to your new family and forget about me like you did before you got the call!"
"Fine. goodbye. I hope you have fun rotting in hell" she left. I have only him now. If he leaves me, I don't know what I'll do!
"Ellie, who is Kevin?"
"my father." I say with no expression in my voice.
"What did he do to you?"
"He raped me, and abused me. He hated me. He told me I was a fuck up. I always messed things up. He once told me to mow the lawn, I did as told. I started the lawn mower after filling the gas. I went and I went horizontally, he likes the grass cut vertically. After Kevin yelled at me he took a knife to my stomach and did this." I say, lifting my shirt showing a large scar. It lies just above my hip bone.
"Wow. I didn't know. I'm really sorry."
"It's not your fault! It was Kevin's."
"Time to go back to the slammer. Oh this is the girl he almost killed. Look at her. She looks weak."
"What the frack did you just say about me? Aren't you a police officer or are you just two really dickhead officers!" "yea we are cops. You aren't afraid of really anything. Who is your father. Did he teach you any respect?"
"Does Kevin lee Wright ring a bell?!"
"Yes it does. Your the victim aren't you? "
" Yes I am. He's dead now. He got away, but it was really all because of my mother. She refused to help."
"Well we gotta take your boyfriend away."
"Okay. Noah don't forget I'm dropping the charges."
"I love you." is all he said before the police officers pulled him away from me.
"Are you ready for the check up, Elizabeth?"
"Yup. Go ahead, but if you think that I'm staying here that long then your wrong!"
"Shit." Is all I hear the doctor say while he is checking me.
"What? What's wrong with me?"
"I don't know how to tell you this but..."