my 8 soulmates

inhale. exhale.

Trigger warning! Please be aware that the death of beloved people is part of this chapter. If it is a trigger of you you can skip this chapter until you see this symbol: ⭐️

You silently listened to him, you could tell he smiled while ending his story about his little brother's first day at school. And you could tell he loved his family dearly. 

"Do you have any siblings?"

You took a deep breath. Yes, you are ready. If you were able to open this door back home, you can open up to your soulmates too.

You squeezed his hand a little bit for mental support and began to answer. 

"Yeah, I had two wonderful younger siblings. Marie and Chris. I.... they...." Your voice failed.

"It's okay, you can take it slow. You don't need to tell me, if you don't feel ready. Take your time." Yunho answered.

"I want to tell you, I trust you." And with another deep breath you continued "When I was 18, they both died together with my parents in a car accident. They were on their way to celebrate my fathers promotion. He was told the day before, but we couldn't celebrate it since that day....well..... that day was my 18th birthday. So the next day he wanted to take us all out to Marie's favourite restaurant. On their way towards the restaurant was traffic jam, and their car was the last one in line."

Inhale. Exhale.

"The truck driver was so tired he didn't even see the traffic."

Inhale. Exhale.

"He crashed into them. He just ran over their car. My- ........my little brother and sister were on the back of the car."

Inhale.

Your voice was barely a whisper at this point.

"They must have been hit first."

Exhale.

"The police report stated that my father didn't die through the crash, he bled to death. He must have seen them. The...."

You could hear your voice crack and feel some tears spilling. 

Inhale. Exhale.

"The favourite toy of my brother was the miniature truck my dad gave him on his 4th birthday. Did my dad saw it? There? Inside my brothers small hands? Because he had it with him in the car....when he died. When they died. And I....."

Inhale. Exhale.

Yunho let you tell your story, he was listening. He stayed calm and respected when you needed short breaks. He didn't interrupt you. He was there for you, by your side. A silent but calm comfort for you. When you found your voice again you whispered: 

"I should have been there. I should have been in this car. With them. But because of the mole I've got on my birthday I wanted to celebrate with my best friend and start searching online for my soulmate. 

I felt so guilty, for such a long time.

Why did I survive? 

Why not Chris? Or Marie? 

Why wasn't I there for them?

And then I felt like I couldn't make it without them. I felt so weak and pathetic. 

I should be thankful for this life but instead I was just sad and angry. 

Why couldn't they be beside me anymore? Why did they leave me alone?

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I needed a lot of time to think differently about it. To process all of it and maybe I still need to process it, but I no longer think like that. My mother always loved the whole soulmates thing, and she was convinced that if you meet your soulmate it will change your life. 

Mine not only changed my life, you saved me. 

Twice. 

That day when our mole was the reason I didn't went along with my family. 

And the day I saw you at MAMA. I didn't knew how dull my life had become. How love deprived I was. Until I saw your beautiful eyes. 

So thank you."

You could feel a hand at the side of your face. Softly stroking you. 

Yunho's forehead leaned against yours. 

"You are such a strong woman, and I am so grateful to have meet you." he whispered.

Slowly and carefully his lips found yours. The kiss was slow and full of hope and promises for the future. 

His hands both holding your face as if you were the most precious thing on earth. 

And you could feel the wetness from both of your tears mingle together on your cheeks. 

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So you all really deserved this double update! I am truly sorry for the long time I was inactive, but I really needed the time for myself in order to focus on some more important things in my life. 

This morning I woke up to see a comment, asking for an update. And this gave me so much motivation. So thank you! ❤️

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