Call It What You Want: Taylor Swift + Joe Alwyn

five

"Okay Joe I need you to stay in here. Lock the door and don't come out until I get you, okay? No matter what happens, do not open this door." We both stood up silently as I slightly pushed Joe away from the door.

"But Taylor-

"No Joe. If you come out he'll probably fucking kill you, okay? Stay here. Please."

Joe nodded as I left the bathroom. I heard the door lock behind me which helped to calm me down a little. My heart was still beating faster then I could handle. I all of a sudden now had so much anxiety I felt like I could throw up again.

"Baby where are you?" Tom called as he shut the front door and locked it.

"Hey Tom." I smiled as I made my way into the kitchen, "Where'd you go?"

"That's none of your business." Tom mumbled as he sat down on the couch and turned on the TV.

"I know you just got home... but I really need more... um... tampons. Would you go and get some for me...?"

"Fuck Taylor I just got back and you want me to go out again? You're not even on your period." Tom groaned as he spoke, clearly annoyed. "What do I get in return?" He stood up and came closer to me, placing his hands on my hips.

"Really good sex..?"

"Fine. It better be fucking good though. None of this baby shit from this morning."

"It will be, I have a lot of plans for you." I smiled as Tom grabbed his keys.

"You better not be lying." Tom said as he walked out the door.

I took a deep breath and hurried back to the bathroom, then knocked on the door to let Joe know he could come out.

"Where is he...?" Joe whispered.

"You don't have to whisper, he's not here. I got him to go and get me tampons." I said with a small laugh.

"And he just went...?" Joe questioned.

"There was... a little bribery involved. But it's okay, it all worked out. You can leave without being beaten up now." I smiled and started walking towards the front door to let Joe out.

"What's the bribery?"

I stopped in my tracks and turned around to look at Joe, debating whether I share this with him.

"Just sex. It's fine." I forced a smile onto my face as I opened the door to let Joe out.

"Taylor... is he forcing you to do that?"

"No he's not. It was actually my idea. So don't worry about me okay? Please just... go home."

I watched Joe stop himself from saying anything else, clearly not wanting to cross any boundaries.

"Fine.. see you tomorrow?" Joe asked as he stepped out the door.

"Um.. maybe. I have some recording and stuff to do but... maybe." I smiled a little as I watched Joe walk away.

"Okay bye Tay, please be safe."

Before Joe got the chance to walk any further I ran into his arms to hug him.

"Thank you. I really appreciate everything you're doing for me. I just need you to know that I can't move on... just like that. I need to do this at my own pace. Even though I know what I need to do... it might take a little while."

Joe started to nod and took a deep breath.

"Yeah... yeah okay. I'm sorry if it seems like I was pushing you, i'm just worried about you..."