Always and Forever

The Last Goodbye

TW: Mentions of Death, internal hate, voices in head

                             ᴍɪᴋᴇ's ᴘᴏᴠ
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                        sᴏɴɢ: ʙᴏʏs ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴄʀʏ
                                     ᴀɴᴅ
                 sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɪ sᴛᴀʏ ᴏʀ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɪ ɢᴏ

"ᴍɪᴋᴇ.. ʜᴇ's ᴅᴇᴀᴅ"

Hearing those words repeat over and over again.

I squeeze Max's hand more, trying to grip the pain, wishing it would pop. "Y-You're j-joking, right?"

I feel my throat tighten, I feel sick to the stomach, and my voice starts to crack. I can feel tears forming faster. Don't cry. You can't cry. ʙᴏʏs ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴄʀʏ.

"Haha.. funny joke, really where is Will?" I plaster on a fake smile, please be a bad dream. Please.

Max frowns more and rubs my hand "Mike... I'm not lying.."

I can my hear breath getting heavy, I feel heavy. Like a heavy weight on my shoulders, him?....Why him? Why the one I met on the swings, my best friend, my trust... my one true love.

Max leans in, "Mike I'm so sorry.."

I felt Max hugging me, but I couldn't move, I couldn't hug back like something was holding me back. I felt nothing, I couldn't think, I felt... empty.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ʙᴜʀɴs.

                               ᴍɪᴋᴇ's ᴘᴏᴠ
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I haven't left the room, I just couldn't stop playing Will's favorite song over and over and over. It was the only thing that made it feel like he was here, I didn't talk to anyone during dinner, I wasn't hungry, and I could feel the air in my eyes and the puffiness swell up.

I wasn't tired, this pain is so empty I can't explain it. Ever since I got the news about Will, I felt that spark of happiness disappears. That hope I'm the world gone. The bruises surround my body. ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʀᴋɴᴇss ᴛᴇʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪᴇ.

I hear the doorbell ring, I didn't want to move from the bed. I hear Steve saying he will get it. Hearing the door open, I hear Ms. Byers talking about giving something to me. I force myself out of bed and slowly walked down the stairs.

Joyce has her soft smile and warming personality, "Hey Mike, uhm I found something in Will's room that I'm pretty sure it's for you."

For me? Hearing that name hurts, and I feel like crying again, I HATE my thoughts, those words repeating. He's dead. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ. ɢᴏɴᴇ. ʜɪ ᴡɪʟʟ, ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴏᴍᴇ.

I grab the letter Ms. Byers handed to me, and a rolled-up painting. I say thanks and walked back to my room, closing the door and locking it behind me, I sit on the bed and open the letter.

                            ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ
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Dear Mike,

It's me, Will, uhh I wrote this because I don't know if I have the chance to tell you in person, but I've been seeing the clock. The one Max saw I don't know how much time I have, but I know it's not a lot, I won't be able to fight him off alone, and I don't know what will happen when he gets me. I know this is hard for you to read especially if I'm not going to be here for you. I just want to tell you I love you, I always have since we first met on the swings, and I forgive you during that fight. Be strong for me, okay? Remember, we are ᴄʀᴀᴢʏ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ. This might be our last interaction together. I'll wait for you, Always and forever. ♥️

Ps. Look at the painting.

-Love, will

                               ᴍɪᴋᴇ's ᴘᴏᴠ
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Did he love me? He.. forgives me? Ever since we met on the swings, since the losers club, since we moved, since all of that?

I should've known. GOD, WHY AM I SO STUPID? I should've told him sooner, that I felt the same way, that I didn't mean what I said in that stupid fight, I should've broken up with El, I should've kissed him, I-. My vision gets blurry as I feel the tears falling, I couldn't stop, it was a sudden move, and I start sobbing, like a little kid.

Stop being a girl Micheal.

"Stop crying, you hate crying, stop acting like a kid, stop. Stop it. STOP.

I hear a knock on the door.

It's Max.

She talks from behind the door, "Hey Mike, I got some food for you. You really should eat, please."

"I'm not hungry" I look away and see the tear-filled letter.

I hear Max sigh, "Then try to eat, we are all worried. Steve, Eddie, Robin... Nancy.. everyone"

I hesitate but finally cave in, fine.. put it under the door."

I'm pretty sure she nodded or something, "Okay."

I see the plate slide through the door. I grab it, it's my favorite food. Even though I'm not hungry I still eat it. I have to. Even if I don't, I have to do it for Will. I need to stay, to take care of myself, I can't let anyone go through this again. My friends need me, and I need them. I'll try, I'll try to get out of my room more, I'll try to hang out with them. For them... for Will.

                          ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀsᴛ ɢᴏᴏᴅʙʏᴇ
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                        ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴀɴᴅ ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ

IM SO VERY SORRY FOR THIS VERY VERY LATE POST GUYS.
MY MOTIVATION HAS BEEN SO LOW

I still wanna thank SuflowerRoseRi for helping me make this depression happen 😭

SUGGESTIONS GO HERE LOVES.TY💕
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ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇ 1: fixed words, misspelling fixed, added songs, subtitles, new banner. (Also in the first chapter.)