But he's my best friend? -Phan

Chapter 1 (Dan POV)

It was a regular winter day. One of those bitter days when the air is ice-cold and actually feels painful as it hits against your skin. The shopping had arrived and I had to carry it from the Tesco lorry, up the obnoxiously long flight of stairs to the apartment. I of course decided I would take all the groceries up in one trip, as I don't think I could climb those stairs twice without having a heart-attack.

I finally reached the top, panting as I clumsily stumbled into the apartment dropping the bags on the counter- top. Phil was home on the laptop, editing one of his videos most likely. He offered to help with the groceries, but I told him it was fine because he looked busy. I started putting the groceries in there designated spots, before returning to my browsing position in the living room.

After a few hours interneting, I decided to order a large meat-feast pizza for me and Phil to share. I shouted to Phil telling him it had arrived, but after finishing my half of the pizza and cleaning up I realized his half was still there.

We had planned to watch an anime later, but as he was still in the office this late in the evening I assumed that wasn't happening. "Phillll it's late you can upload tomorrow you've been working on that one video all day!" I shouted from the living room to the office. Although I hadn't realized my feelings at the time, I still felt lonely without seeing him all day. I mean I lived with him and practically didn't leave the house so what did you expect. "Eughhh I'm nearly finished, but I'm sooo tired, why does editing take this long?" He moaned backed.

I thought for a moment and decided to go check up on him, carrying the pizza box with me. "You alright?" I mumbled walking in to the office. He had his elbows rested on the table and his head in his hands which combed through his hair slicking his fringe back messily. He jumped slightly after hearing my voice before settling back in to his seat. "Yeah I'm alright, it's just editing this video is taking for ever." "Well eat something, I haven't seen you leave this room all day, it's not good for you! The video can wait you know everyone will understand" I said setting the pizza on the table beside him. "I know, but I'm nearly done now" he replied grabbing a slice of pizza.

I hated seeing him like this. This wasn't the Phil I knew. Phil usually had the most adorable personality ever, but it had been disaster after disaster with him this week. No wonder he was stressed. He left his camera in Louise's house after attempting to do a "day in the life" video, but forgot that he was supposed to be filming literally the second we left the house. So he had no camera and no footage. He therefore had to film his new Amazingphil video using my camera. Then it turns out our editing software needed updating, which took an hour. So he was panicking for that entire hour to me. Saying he wanted to get the video up tonight and how he wasn't going to be able to. He seriously is disaster- prone. I looked at his worried face lit up by the computer screen, looking like he was just going to burst in to tears any second.

"I'll do it" I sighed, knowing I couldn't stand to see him looking like that for much longer. "Do what?" he replied looking confused, despite how obvious it seemed to me. "I'll edit the video you peasant. You look exhausted, like your about to cry." I replied setting my hand comfortingly on his shoulder. "Its fine Dan I can..." "No" I said cutting him off, he was not going to do this to himself, sometimes he just works too hard. "I'll do it and don't worry it will be up tonight, now go get some sleep and that's an order." I smiled at him. Although he looked like he wanted to protest he clearly realized I wasn't taking no for an answer. Our eyes met and although his face showed signs of protest, his eyes showed that he was thankful. "I suppose, if you insist" he teased, slightly nudging my shoulder.

He got off his seat and made his way toward the door. I took his place settling into the seat and beginning to edit the video. I thought Phil had left, but then he spoke breaking the silence in the room after about a minute. "Seriously thank you Dan, you didn't have to do this." I heard Phil's voice calling from the doorway. I smiled to myself, keeping my eyes locked on the screen to avoid him seeing. I spun round in the seat. "Shut up soppy" I said jokingly, as I locking eyes with him. My plan to not let him see me smiling uncontrollably didn't work. As the moment I saw him there, half-sleeping with his head tilted to the side to lean against the door frame, I couldn't stop myself. He smiled back, with that heart-warming smile. It's unfair he has the ability to do that. To make me and probably everyone else who has ever saw him melt the second he looks at them.

"I thought I ordered you to go to bed Phil" I said winking at him with the innuendo. We always teased each other about 'phan' due to all the shippers. He giggled rolling his eyes at me. "Night Dan" he smiled. "Night babe" I replied continuing the joke in my usual sarcastic tone. Earning another eye-role and giggle from him. His laughter was a sound that I was honored to say I got to hear quite often.

He actually left the room this time, leaving me alone with his video. I started work on the video, determined to get it up tonight after promising Phil. It only took another thirty minutes to finish the editing as Phil had done the majority of it. I watched the video one last time before uploading it. I couldn't stop laughing at it, although I tried to quieten down as I didn't want to wake Phil up. I paused the video on a particularly cute face he had made. I looked at the screen smiling slightly for what felt like a minute, but was actually ten. I analysed all his features from the way his hair fell, to his choice of outfit for the video.

Then I finally broke out of my trance. I'm so glad Phil didn't randomly appear behind me in the last ten minutes. It would have been pretty weird for him to see his best friend just staring at his face on a computer screen for long periods of time. I uploaded the video swiftly and headed to my room. I couldn't sleep though. I lay in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about the day. About if Phil would be alright once he had rested. This sparked thoughts about his features, his new video, just him in general. How much of an adorable idiot that human was. How I loved his dark black hair and those little fringe gaps that he hates. The fact that he wore funny multi-coloured t-shirts all the time. That his eyes were both blue, green and yellow at the same time and that they would appear demonic on any other face, but with him it just worked. How he didn't care what anyone thought of him and did what he wanted without fear of being called strange and how he taught me to do the same. I couldn't even list the amount of things I loved about him. Platonically of course. Or was it?

This was the moment my whole world changed. This was the moment I questioned my feelings for Phil. This was the moment it hit me like a ton of bricks. What if all the shippers were right? What if you were actually looking at him with "heart-eyes", but you never realized? What if I really did feel this way about him? No, no of course I don't. He's Phil. Stop this Dan. It been a long day, you're obviously deluded. As if you could ever feel that way for Phil Lester. I mean he's your best friend, your room-mate, not that... not a potential partner... or was he? I spent the next few hours debating what Phil Lester was to me and getting absolutely no-where. Until I fell asleep.

Authors Note- Hello! If you are actually reading this. This is my first fanfic so please don't judge it too harshly. I've wanted to write one for a while but never really got round to it. Okay so firstly i'll try to update this weekly (At most a few times a week- At least once every two weeks). It might not be the same day each week, but i'll try. Though I should be able to, because i'll finally be off for summer in two weeks! YAY! :D Next chapter i'm planning will be from Phil's pov. Any ideas on possible plot lines or parts of the story you would like to read feel free to comment and are of course welcome! :)