But he's my best friend? -Phan

Chapter 5 (Phil POV)

Phil POV

*Time skip to Friday*

The morning of our holiday was frantic. We desperately searched the apartment for our belongings. I always bring too much with me. I always felt the need to bring two choices of t-shirt per day instead of one in case I changed my mind as I can be quite indecisive. Dan is the complete opposite. He always forgets something. Like forgetting his socks, his charger, his money and toothpaste when we went to New York. So I had to check up on him making sure he had packed everything this time. In hindsight we probably should have started packing earlier instead of leaving it to the morning before we were leaving.

We decided to check each other's suitcases before we left. I listed off what he needed. "Okay t-shirts?" "Yeah" he replied. "Jeans?" "Check" "Wash stuff?" "Yeah" "laptop" "Of Course" "and charger?" "Yeah" "pajamas?" he looked up nervously fiddling his hands "I... umm, don't wear pajamas." How did I forget that? After I told Dan about the holiday, he jumped up and hugged me. Normally there is nothing I love more than hugging Dan, but with his serious lack of clothing, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to control myself. He caught me staring at him, so I quickly left the room, but I didn't realize I must have been that obvious. I mean he looks so nervous right now, Wow I just made this awkward. "Oh yeah, not that I know that, I just noticed the other day when... umm... socks and ... uh underwear" Why? Why did I have to get all flustered? I could have just brushed by the situation but no, my mouth decided to forget how to speak! "Yeah" Dan said breaking my train of thought. He smiled towards me indicating that he wasn't going to call me out. "I think that's everything then" I smiled back heading to my room and continuing my packing. Unlike Dan's suitcase which had everything neatly rolled up, my clothes were folded in a slightly messier manner, which when Dan came in to check my suitcase he clearly didn't approve of. "Phil, you could at least try to make it neat" he complained lifting my items out of the suitcase and rolling them up as he spoke. "I did try to make it neat, it looks fine Dan just leave it" I said setting the t-shirt back in. He reluctantly left the suitcase alone after a bit of persuasion.

Soon after we grabbed our coats, locked the apartment and headed for the station dragging our cases behind us. The day was cloudy, but not as cold as earlier in the week. The train arrived pretty quickly and then we were off on our three hour train ride to Blackpool. Dan got out his laptop and we watched a movie for the first hour and a half. After the movie Dan fell asleep. I of course took a photo of him and uploaded it to twitter assuring everyone that we would film some of our trip to Blackpool. Dan looked so peaceful as he slept, he was blessed with the ability to sleep on public transport, were as I had to stay awake for the entire journey. I envied him as when he woke up just as we arrived he was full of energy.

The hotel was just a short walk from the station. It was slightly warmer in Blackpool, though the sky was now pink and the sun was just about to set. We both excitedly chattered as we walked in to the hotel. "Hello welcome how can I help you?" The lady at the desk greeted us. She was an older woman with grey hair and a cheesy smile. "I booked a twin room under the name of Lester" I said. I heard Dan giggle behind me, most likely at how formal I was being around other people. "There seems to be an issue, we appear to have overbooked the twin room" The lady said apologetically. "So is there no where for us to stay?" Dan questioned. "No we can either give you a double room or two single rooms if you want? I'm sorry about the mix up." I knew which one I would prefer, but would Dan be okay with sharing? Dan turned round to me "Is the double room alright?" he questioned. "Yeah that's fine" I said attempting to conceal my feelings of joy that he didn't want the single rooms. "Well here's your key, you're on the second floor and enjoy your stay" said the old woman smiling as she passed the key to Dan.

We huddled our bags and selves into the elevator and headed up to the second floor. When we arrived at our room it was beautiful. It was quite minimalistic with white walls. As you entered the room there was a bathroom to your right and cupboards to your left. As you walked further into the room there was a white king size bed on the right which had a TV opposite and the entire wall at the end was made of glass, with a glass door that opened out on to a small balcony. I love that feeling when you arrive in a hotel room, when you just want to explore and are full of excitement.

And we did just that. Dan and I excitedly pointed out every aspect of the room like children. "Dan come look at this!" I said for what felt like the hundredth time. I was leaning over the balcony staring at the beautiful view of the beach in the evening. The beach was empty, though the city looked busy. The theme park could be seen in the distance, I was so excited to go there as Dan and I both have a love of roller-coasters. As I leaned further to get a better view of the town. Though this was a mistake as I stumbled slightly forward towards the balcony wall. Dan rushed forward grabbing either side of my waist as I stumbled. "Phil what are doing you could have fell" he said with a slightly angered tone in his voice. "Dan its okay" I said turning round to face him, very aware he still had his arms on my waist "I wouldn't have fell there's a wall." He rolled his eyes "well obviously I can see the wall, just be careful." He then lowered his hands off my waist, as he spoke. I may have slightly abused his caring nature, as I turned back round to look out of the balcony quickly, knowing he would grab hold of me again. And he did. As soon as I had quickly spun round his hands were back round my waist. "Phil what did I just say" he said as he grabbed my waist. "Look how stunning the view is" I said dazzled by the town. Compared to London, which although I loved London cities are always so hectic. I felt Dan's head rest on my shoulder. "It's beautiful" he said. We then stood in a comfortable silence. I wish this is what it could always be like, I wish he could hold my waist not because of the balcony but just because he felt like it. To be honest lately I thought there could be something between us, I felt like maybe he felt the same, but I would never be able to risk our friendship for this. No, I decided I am not going to act on my feelings. If Dan were to ever say to me he felt the same I would jump at the chance. But if I made a move it could mess up everything. He would never feel that way and I just needed to accept that.

Our moment was rudely interrupted by a knock on the door. Dan answered and a young blonde girl in the hotel uniform, with a name badge with the name Amy wrote on it scurried in the room. "Mr Lester?" she questioned. I nodded "yeah that's me" I said. "An apology present from the hotel for any inconvenience" Amy said setting a box of chocolates on the side table. I mean in my eyes there was no inconvenience, I get to be near Dan and get chocolate! But I wasn't about to say that. "Aw thank you" I said smiling towards her. She began to make small talk. "So where have you came here from?" she said politely. "London" Dan replied "just fancied a weekend away" I added. "Aw that's nice, you guys are cute how long have you been together?" Amy said tilting her head slightly. "Um no we aren't together, we are just friends." Dan swiftly said almost sounding offended. Just friends. He called us just friends.To say I was disappointed at him calling us "just friends" was an understatement. I don't know what I expected him to say but it wasn't that. I felt hurt to hear him say it, especially after we spent the last ten minutes cuddling. "Oh I'm sorry, I just assumed" Amy said before adding "I better get back to work" and leaving the room. He had acted so flirty lately, why was he so offended that she said that? In fact since recently I have been thinking that he feels something too, then maybe I should test this out. Well if he's going to call us just friends then we will be "just friends" no more cuddling, no more arm-linking. If he likes me back then hopefully this will make him realize it and if not it's okay because we are just acting like regular friends do. 

"Coming back out to the balcony?" Dan said smiling at me. How dare he I thought to myself. So I decided to put my plan in to action. "No I'm kind of tired, I think I'm going to get an early night. "Really it's not that late?" he said looking up at me, slightly disappointingly. I wanted to give in and scream yes lets cuddle forever, but I found the restraint to say "I'm always tired after travelling." And with that I headed to bed. From now on I was going to spend effort on my appearance, act distant and hopefully make him realize if he liked me that he should do something about it. I'm going to make this boy fall in love with me because I'm tired of waiting for him to realize how I feel.

Author's Note- They are finally on holiday! Well Phil's a bit upset, oops. Do you reckon his plan will convince Dan? Or will it ruin  everything? Sorry this is a day late guys, I was brave and actually left the house when I was supposed to finish writing this. I also just want to say thanks for actually reading this, I really enjoy writing it so I hope you enjoy reading it or even are only reading it cause there is nothing else to do I hope you found it better than doing nothing!  -Emily x