We have had ups and downs but every moment I've cherished. I wouldn't trade a single second for anything imaginable. Even at the worst times I am comforted by her eyes.
She has made me a better man. Everyday I hope to be better than the day before. Sometimes I am not but she loves me anyway and that pushes me onward.
When we were thrown on the streets we lived with Tyler's momma. We never looked away from each other. We have had our first apartment and learned to live together. I've made mistakes and she forgave me allowing me to forgive myself. I think everyone needs their own little lobster roll. Whether it be a friend or a child someone to love you unconditionally and keep you company as we fight on.
Through covid, through unemployment, and through my recovery. Through 2 apartments, 2 couches, and 1 camper. Through surgery and mental breakdowns and 3 hair colors. Through bad jobs and family disasters We never took our eyes off each other. Our bond is invincible and tempered.
I call her everyday on my lunch break and we talk. While we shower we talk. While we play video games, watch movies or anime we talk. Even while we slow dance in our kitchen burning pizza we talk. Every night I lay down next to her and we talk. We haven't come close to running out of things to talk about. I still relish her voice and her mind. She is truly perfect.
I wrote this for her as an immortal recording of our story from my perspective. We will be getting married on September 9th 2023. Our four year anniversary.
I thank god every single day for every single second she has been mine. I have never forgotten or lost faith in us and neither have you. I'm so exited to start our love story. But this first chapter is almost as beautiful as it gets.
Also while writing this she showed me the notebook and son of a bitch I'm angry I didn't think of this first. I was hoping to be romantic and make her smile. Damn it.
I'm going to come home tonight and she will be waiting at the door to greet me and jump into my arms. We're gonna sway to old country and talk about our day and I'll be in heaven.
Life is worth living and if you just keep pressing on you may find that in the hottest fires the strongest steel is formed. If you need help please reach out because you may miss all of the good heading your way and more people than you think will miss you.
Suicide hotline. 800-273-8255
Don't be ashamed. Sometimes you're the hammer and sometimes you're the nail.
