What dreams are made of... (Between Us/Hemp Rope)

Deal.

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Waan sits in the office of the principal at Torch's school. He needed to change over all the paperwork to make him the primary guardian for the kid, this he had to do at Rosie's school too. The task is tedious for lack of a better word. Who knew it was this much work looking after a couple of kids? Luckily when he decided to mentor Rider he had changed everything over to him so that's at least one stop he doesn't have to make, for which he was really grateful. The thought of running into Tul was like putting his soul through a shredder. He was not ready to meet him yet. The boy had gutted him when he chose to leave, he cant blame him though, he didn't even discuss his decisions with him or even ask his opinion, once again he just did what he wanted to do and didn't consider his partner. Tul is still young, he has so much of living to do, this is the reason he didn't want to date him in the first place but his heart was not very smart. He sighs, he knows that the man is the only one for him, he knows that one day they will be together again. Tul just needs to experience his life on his terms, when he is ready to settle down he had assured himself that he will be right here waiting for that day, even if it took ten years. And if Tul had found someone else by then, he would accept his defeat and wish him well. He needed him to know thought that he would be here waiting for him, he needed to know that no matter what happens, he will still be the one for him. 

"P'Waan, are you okay? You look ready to cry."

He is brought back to reality by Torch, he just smiles weakly at the kid, "I'm good. Are you?" He knows that all these changes cant be good on a young kids mind, he tried his best to make the transition as seamless as possible but when he passes by the kids rooms at night, he can hear them both crying themselves to sleep. It pains him but he also knows that he has to wait for them to come to him, he cant force them to until they are ready. Wiew is also struggling with this. See the problem here is, they have never experienced loss like these kids have. Watching their brother murdered in front of them, seeing their parents lose themselves, splitting from each other because of guilt and blame, then accepting their parents were going to jail, but eventually having to deal with the fact that they were both now deceased. Its a lot for grown adults to handle, personally he doesn't know how they still have the energy to get out of bed in the morning. 

"I'm okay. I'm sorry you have to go through all the trouble for us..." Torch looks away, feeling guilty that this persons entire life was collapsed because of them. He cant even remember how many times he had planned to run away to ease the burden, but he knows that this will only cause more harm to his siblings and right now they are all so strung out emotionally. Maybe if he only has Rosie to look after then P'Tul will come back, maybe then P'Waan will be happier. 

He sighs, "I wouldn't have it any other way. You and your siblings are great kids who were just dealt a bad hand in life. I cant ever say that I will understand or even know what you guys go through everyday because that would be a flat out life, but I can promise you that I can help you. I can help all of you. I just want you to trust me, I wont abandon you kid. When you are ready, my door is always open to you, to Rosie, to Rider."

"But its because of us that your relationship ended, its because of us that you are so lost and depressed. You hide it well but we can see right through you. We know what pain is P'Waan and its written all over your face. I'm afraid that one day you will wake up and regret your decision, considering that your whole life is now about us. We are a burden to you..." He hangs his head, not wanting P'Waan to see the shame on his face.

He takes in a deep breath, "Look at me kid." He gives him a minute to compose himself enough to face him, "Tul and I didn't end because of you, we ended because of me. I didn't respect him enough to consider his feelings, his opinions, to ask him what he wanted. I did what I wanted and that's why we ended. It doesn't matter how much you love someone or care about someone, when the feeling of doubt creeps in and is only strengthened by how the other person treats you, then nothing can save your relationship. I was alone for so long that I forgot how to be a person, how to be considerate, how to be understanding. This is on me, that's why I'm sad, I fumbled the ball. Regardless, this has nothing to do with you or your siblings so get that thought out of your head. Its not like you guys are toddlers and we would have to change diapers."

He smiles a little, feeling a bit better. "I think you should fight for him, don't give up yet. If you really are at fault and not us then you need to do everything in your power to reassure him of your feelings. I can help you. Please let me at least try and repay everything that you do for us. I know I can help you with this. I'm actually begging here." 

Waan snorts, "How about you just focus on getting better first? Leave the adulting to the adults. All you have to do is just be a kid." 

"P'Waan... You may think you have all the time in the world but you don't." He watches his breath catch but he continues, "I know I'm only 15 but I have gone through things that people who live to 100 don't go through so I know what I'm saying. Its always the thought that there is still tomorrow, but just look at us, look at our family and look at our lives. Use this as a lesson P'Waan, its never promised... All we have is the here and now..."

He closes his eyes to stop the tears, he knows that the kid is right. Once again he is being schooled by a teenager. He clears his throat and straightens in his seat. Since they had moved in to his home, Waans parents moved to Chonburi permanently, giving him the house and the businesses to run in the city. He had planned to move back anyway but didn't plan on staying at home, needing the extra room though he agreed. Wiew is also staying at the house since he is going to university now. He had overnight become a parent to 4 brats. He uses the word 'brat' lovingly though. Even though these kids are in a vulnerable state, they never fail to make him smile, laugh, appreciate life. Everyday he feels himself growing to love them more and more. "Lets promise each other something."

Torch looks at P'Waan cautiously. He is a master at getting people to do stuff that they don't want to readily do but he reluctantly agrees, "Sure."

"You agree to go to therapy but also convince Rosie too. I will then let you be my campaign manager to get Tul back. You feel obligated to owe me right, this is how you repay me."

Torch has been refusing therapy, adamant that he doesn't need it. He has seen the changes in P'Rider though, maybe it does work. He considers the deal that P'Waan is proposing to him, yes he feels like he owes him and he feels like a burden on the man, feeling very undeserving of his hospitality and his generosity. P'Waan has been insisting that he and Rosie attend therapy but they came this far in refusing him. But if he wants to help P'Waan get his love back, maybe he wont be so sad all the time. What harm can therapy really do? He knows he will regret this, "You have a deal P'Waan." 

Waan sits back triumphantly, "Deal."

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