Finding Love || MinSung Or HanChan ??

Hidden Feelings

"Hyung ....... Why did you walk out on me ???" Han stood at Chan's room door with a dull face and some tear stains...

Chan looked up to see Han walking towards him ....

"Hannie "..... Chan said in between his sobs .. "what ..what . are you doing here .. ?"

" You kinda left without doing the kiss. pin to wall etc things" ... Han said sitting next to Chan on the bed resting his head  on his palm and staring at the ceiling  ... trying to ease tease the whole grim situation

" Oh you are here to mock," Chan said without looking up ...

"Hyung you are one of my favorite people on this earth ... Today I am able to do what I love, is major because of you ...and the amount of support I get from you is beyond any expression... You have not only taken care of me with music ..but you have always stood by my side when i felt too scared .... I ... I can't imagine my skz life without being with you.. you have made every day so warm and comforting since day one ... "

Chan was at a loss for words .... At this point, he hated himself for looking at this precious little one with lustful eyes when all he saw in him was a reliable older brother....

"I... i am. .. i am...very sorry Hannie ... I..am ..i.really sorry.... "Chan said his face resting on his knees turned away from Han still sobbing . ....

Han got on his knees on the bed next to Chan and lifted his face .. "Hyung ....please look at me .. Why are you saying sorry .... ?"

"Because... Because... I .... I am a bad person to have thought about those things about you... I just stained our bond ... I am sorry for being disgusting"

Han cupped Chan's face and bought their faces closer .. "hyung.... First stop calling you or your feelings disgusting.. it is not something that you should be regretful ... It's not like you had control over it ... "

At this point, Chan started sobbing loudly..." Shhh... Stop crying please" Han wiped tears away from Chan's face .. "What your heartfelt is what it felt .. there is absolutely nothing wrong with it ... "

Han inched closer and wiped tears from Chan's eyes with his thumb.. "i hate seeing sad tears from your eyes hyung"

"I --I -- So--sorry" ... Chan's words was almost inaudible with his sobs ...

Han hugged Chan sideways holding him tightly resting Chan's head on his chest, shushing and creasing his back continuously, and waiting patiently for him to lower his sobs ...

After about 5 minutes when Chan composed himself a tiny bit ... "Ho--how are you still holding me and not disgusted by me ??? " Asked in a low voice

"Because you are Bang Chan .. my dearest channie hyung .. I can never hate you .. i can't hate my favourite human" Han said now looking at his face still holding him ...

"Bu-- buuttt .... I broke your trust ... I-- i wished for something bad .. when all you saw me as a respectful older brother "

" Because i never thought in my wildest dream this could ever happen.. " Han said breaking the embrace and now leaning on the bed's headboard and gestured Chan to come to sit next to him with arms open

" Huh ??? What ..what do you mean? " Chan moved and snuggled in younger's arms and got comfortable placing his arms around his tiny waist and resting his head on his firm chest ..

" What I mean is ... I'm confused ...."

" Why ??? "

" I'm still wondering..why would someone like you would have any interest in someone like me ?? "