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Bandages

As I giggled like four year old an locked the bathroom door I heard Gerard's clumsy steps getting louder then a door slam , did I annoy him with my little tease ? OOOH , heheh as I got undressed I took his shirt off which stunk of jack Daniels an coffee an a bit of smoke , I rolled my eyes , I know he smokes , I rolled my eyes at the scent an unbuttoned it an folded it up neatly on franks toilet seat , an my shorts to an My bra an pants , I turned on the shower an I checked my phone I had two text messages

From:mom
Hey Chloe is it okay for you to stop over there tonight , I've been rushed into work an you know I hate leaving you alone over the night okay thanks xx

An another
Mom:
Chloe , I've packed your stuff on the chair , I've got to go away for two weeks , something's happened to your dad while he was away an I need to be there for him , we'll be about two weeks , he had a crash an he needs to stay in hospital I'll keep you updated , try not to worry precious cxx the keys are under the Mat , love you xxxxxx

I replied
Omg mom are you okay , I'll try an see if I can stay with gerard , omg I know he shouldn't of gone . Okay well I'll get my stuff in a bit see you zxx send my love to him will you oh god 😓 Cxx
I put my phone down on the sink base , trying to process what just happened , I'll just get into the shower an think , my eyes were stinging from the amount of tears hitting them , I shakily stood in the shower an scrubbed away at my wrists , I did it to keep myself calm , it helped for a while but then I made myself bleed after scratching so hard , I looked at them an cried even more , trying to process everything , I turned the shower off an just stood there getting colder for a good five minutes , I stood out looked for a towel , oh just fucking great , no towel
" g...gee , c..can y...ou get get me a t..t..towel please " I tried to shout through my voice cracking for crying , I went a bit light headed my wrists were bleeding a lot " chloe , the towels , here they are " I creaked the door open just enough for my hand to fit through , I grabbed the towel quickly not wanting Gerard to see my wrists , " get out of that bathroom now , wrap that towel around yourself an get here now " I was scenes but not of him , just scared , he sounded worried an strict at the same time , I quickly wrapped the towel tightly around me an mopped up my wrists an grabbed my phone , I unlocked the door To find a crying Gerard "why ? What's wrong what happened , let me see them , " he said softly through the tears , I was already crying I put my phone on the floor , an outstretched my arms he held them just before my cuts examining them attentively , without saying anyting he walked off into his room an fiddled around with a box , I didn't know what he was doing , then I saw him come back with a big green Bix , it was a first aid kit , his eyes were still puffy an his nose red which contrasted well with his pale white skin "once ive cleaned an bandaged you up , I'll lend you some of my skinny jeans an all American rejects tee , then tell me what happened cloboe , " he said never maing eye contact with me just fiddling with a bandage set an some wipes , he touched my hand as if asking for permission to pull my arm closer I nodded an bit my lip from the stinging sensation , then I was all bandaged up , he stood me up " th....thank you geebear , I said gripping his hand for support "I would do anything for you darling , just promis me you won't do it again , ever !! Tell me what happend once you got changed " he spoke softly holding both of my hands carefully , I looked into his chestnut eyes an started crying burying my head in his bare chest , it felt so , right ? He planted a kiss on the top of my head an wrapped his arms protectively around my back I felt so safe but so sad (even with the butterflies) after an minute I nodded an walked into the bathroom to find the clothes folded neatly in the toilet seat , I slipped them on an brushed the knots out of my hair , being careful not to knock my neatly bandaged arms , I looked at myself satisfied with the skinny jeans black doc martins an all American rejects tee shirt , I didn't however like my bandaged arms so I waked swiftly into the hall an down the stairs to find my leather jacked I looked at it an grabbed it to put it in later , it's to hot in here to be wearing jackets , so I plopped it on to the stairs , I waked up to tell Gerard what happened , as soon an I went to knock his door he opened it an before I could say anything he crashed his lips into mine , I didn't move , just smiled then showed Gerard the text messages as he was reading them tears started filling up in his eyes , he met my dad a few times an liked him he pulled me into a massive hug an buried his nose just at the top of my ear his face covered in my black mop , " chloe you can stop whenever you want baby , we'll go an get your clothes an woman shit then I'll sort you somewhere to sleep" he looked at me an winked I nodded an thanked him , we stood there cuddling it was lovely , it would of been perfect
But it wasn't
My dad was in an accident
An now in hospital
I feel a panic attack coming on .