In my bed thinking the craziest thoughts a mind could have

lying in my bed, alone
trying to keep my mind busy, admiring the superfluous through my phone
no matter how much i concentrate
if I get distracted for just two seconds,

I think about you.

I kept you waiting for so many months
but when i looked for you
you didn't wait for me anymore
why didn't you wait for me just a little longer?

It's confusing, it's like every time I remember us, a piece of me is gone, like the pieces of our photo that I tore and threw away.

I tried to erase you in my mind
my memories tell me that i still love you
even after we hurt each other
you still love me?

do you remember me often?

you said there's no more chance for us
but in the same messages you say
that we'll meet somewhere in life's path.

life.

you are afraid to see me.
you say you don't date him,
but you is afraid to see me and prefers to solve it over the phone.

love on the phone,
hate on the phone,
hard feelings over the phone.

you are afraid to look into my eyes and remember that you love me more than anything.
that I'm your man, not him,
he could never be me.

in my bed, lying on silk and newspaper,
I can't think about you, I can't cry for you anymore.

you're gone, i'm still lying in my bed,
you told me you're going to new zealand.
far away, where you can't run from who you are.

won't you stay with me? aren't we going to have that life we ​​planned together?
this is all my fault,
i stay in my bed.

how you can go away?
when love is an hour away,
how you can go, my love?
how you can?

I can't blame you anyway.

but when you come back, and you go.
call me on the phone,
walk to my room,
see me lying,

I smell like flowers and lemon juice,
my hair is curly and it's shining in the light coming through the window,
my skin, my lips,
blue banisters is playing.

I keep lying, same habits.

come close, hug me.
say sorry for leaving me.
i'm sorry for letting you go.
I keep lying,

but now you will be lying with me.