Girl next door - Jenna Ortega x reader

10.

~ Y/N POV ~

The girl who's lips I felt collide with mine not even an hour ago, was now laying in my bed. Her eyes closed. Her hair messy. She must have been pretty tired since she fell asleep almost instantly the second she laid down. I had told her that she could lay down while I made myself ready for bed in the bathroom, but when I returned she had already fallen asleep. Her breath was soft as half her face was buried into my soft pillow. She looks so peaceful and beautiful at the same time.

I took the blanket and carefully pulled it over her, laying it gently over her bare skin. A soft breath left her mouth. Letting me now that she was comfortable. Now that I had the time to look at her and think about what had happend, I started to feel insecure again. I couldn't help but think this was all a dream. A fantasy I had made up in my head. A fairytale. It felt impossible.

I've always been on my own. And I liked being alone. At least that's what I keep telling myself. But the truth is, that I didn't know any better then to be alone. To hide away from the world. So no one could ever hurt me again. I've been used for my set of skills too many times, while she made me believe we were friends- or more then that. It's because of her that I've closed myself off like this. And the reason why I have come to trust no one. She's the reason why I'm afraid to open up. To show the world my art. To believe that I'm good enough and deserve good things. She is my ex 'best friend' Maya. And my first love. But she ruined me.

Clearly. Because tonight was wonderful. More than wonderful. But, because of her my mind wonders if this was actually real. If this wasn't just an act from Jenna to get me to help her with Wednesday and her script. Letting me make sketches and giving her ideas, just for her to stab me in the back and take all the credit for it. To after throw me away like a used up piece of paper and break my heart. That's what Maya did. Long story short- She's a singer. I wrote songs and gave her ideas. She played with my feelings to after steal my songs and ideas, to take all the credit and get far in the music business. Leaving me, without hesitation. Perhaps that's why I hate most celebrities.

But with Jenna it felt different. It felt safe. But still, my mind wouldn't let me believe that. That I was worth being liked by someone like Jenna for me. And not for my skill set. I looked at her as my insecurities got to me. I decided to sit in the big chair I had in the corner of my room and try to sleep there. Convinced that, that was the best option for myself. Maybe I should step away from Jenna. Before the same thing happens again. I've fallen for her, hard, in less then 3 days. She could never feel the same way about me, within this period of time. She probably heard from my mom and her aunt what I could do and started her plan then. Maybe-

"Hey? What are you doing over there? Can't sleep?" My overthinking got interrupted by the mumbling of a sleepy Jenna that was now looking at me with squinting eyes. "Yeah. I thought it would be best if I slept here. Don't want to give you the wrong impression." I softly say as the bad thoughts were still lingering inside my head. "What? Don't be silly, come over here. Or are you afraid I'll be stealing your blanket?" She jokes with a faint smile. I couldn't help but smile too. "No it's okay. You take my bed. This chair is pretty comfy." I state as Jenna raises an eyebrow. "Okay weirdo come over here or I'll drag you over." She grins. "You drag me? You're so small." I chuckle. "I'm stronger then I look. Don't underestimate me." Jenna states with a chuckle. "Now come join me. It's nice and warm in here." She smiles as she opens the blanket for me. I look at her as she meet my eyes. I linger. "What's wrong? I don't bite. Although you didn't mind that, not to long ago." She states with a soft grin. I knew it was partially a joke, but she wasn't wrong. Why was I suddenly so hesitant about everything? While I kissed her and wanted her more then anything not longer then an hour ago. Who was I kidding? I still want her more then anything. Even if there was a big possibility of it being a trap.