Astrid Hoffmann was born in West Germany. It was 1987 and she was helping people get past the wall until the sunset. She was walking when she found an odd necklace and took it home to give back to somebody tomorrow. However, Hoffmann Wakes in a new...
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Photo: Astrid (portrayed as Isla Phillips) eating icecream in Paris of 1980
DISTURBING TOPICS AHEAD!!!
November 1912 ——————————————————
Familiar faces followed me to my shared room, my side was me, Cian's side was all Cian and Kiki's side was all Kiki. Caoimhe was sleeping softly on her bed. Olga stared at the room in awe, even Tati looked rather surprised. "Wow, this is all your styles mixed!" Olga complimented. Olga pointed out familiar things. "Oh look a painting!" "Oh look the photo!"
Olga sat on my cot and smiled. "Same mattress. Wow this must be cool! With like enough room! Its so spacey!" Olga said. She got off. "Do you want to go to Auntie Olga and Grandmama?" Asked Olga to me and silent Tatiana. Tatiana spoke up for the first time, "you may go, I want to talk to Astri and Kiki and Cian." Olga nodded and left us. Liesel was allowed to stay as Cian woke up Kiki.
Liesel was distracted as me, Ci, Ki and Tanya spoke at a table, I sat on it with Cian. "Cian you look different. And you are wearing the necklace I gifted you." Tanya said to Cian then to me. We nodded. "I missed you all! So terribly." Tatiana said. "I did too." Cian said. "I missed you the most." I admitted. "Can't you come back? All of you?" Asked Taitana. I shook my head. "It is odd not matching." She admitted, she and Olga wore pink dresses which was ruffled, I wore a red one which was styled completely differently.
"What's it like?" I asked. She sighed, "it's odd without you, mama is more frustrated and annoyed, she has bad health and tells us to quiet down. She has terrible migraines, 1 to 5, five the worst. She doesn't cry anymore, she only cried when you or Aloysha was in trouble." Tati said. "She doesn't show much emotion anymore, it's sometimes hard to see how she feels. A lot of the time she stays with me." Tatiana said.
"Has he been around more often?" I questioned, she looked at me. "Father Grigori? Yes his visits have become more frequent since Grandmama took you." She told me and Cian.
"Do you believe in him?" Cian asked. "Yeah, do you?" I asked, I quietly explained to Cian. Kiki was told to leave. Tatiana looked away, "Mama talks highly of him, I've seen what he's done to you. It's hard to remember what he did to you if mama speaks so highly." She said, I sighed. "I want to share with you guys, but keep it a secret, please." I pleaded, Cian agreed and so did Tatiana.
I stood up and took my diary, I opened to the first page. "January 1912.." I readed out loud. I was reading Astrid Nikoalevna's first diary entry to her older sister and bestest friend, they started off fine but got more disgusted when I read it. "With his cold leathery skin." I finished. Both of them stared at each other. And back to me. I took her hand and cian's, Cian laid on the table. "I don't recall writing this at all." I muttered as I admitted. "It's okay Tanya." I reassured, Cian fell off the table and went backwards. Tatiana looked up to me, and stuttered.
"I- why. No! Look Astrid, look what he has done to you! I spent my birthday right next to you that nobody thought would wake up. And about our shvibzik, Anastasie, she cried when she visited your room it was the first time I'd seen her cry! She wasn't laughing or being funny, she sat next to your lifeless body." Tatiana yelled, she raised her voice. "Guess how Cian acted! He stopped doing his job!? He literally stayed next to your lifeless body and didn't eat. So did Marie! Baby was allowed near the room we kept you in! Olga stopped eating! We suffered because of him! Now I understand Astrid."
Cian came back and just fell, he began crying. That's the only time I saw him crying, Tatiana helped him up, he slapped himself in his face and calmed down. "What happened?" I murmured. Tatiana calmed down a bit, "come again?" I sighed. "What happened to me Tati?!" I yelled. I felt anger. "I just want to know how I got here! What happened? Cian said he couldn't because it was too hard for him! I understand! Nobody else told me their reasons, and they also ignored my question! Tell me everything!" I cried.
Tatiana told us to sit, Cian decided to go to sleep. "Before, everything. Rasputin came to visit us. We were all ready for bed, we snuck him in the nursery without our governess seeing him. He saw us in pairs, he took the small pair first in a sperare room and spoke to them, the door was shut and nobody heard them. Then he took me, Olga and lastly you. The door wasn't fully closed so the small pair and Olga went to distract our governess. I went close to the door, what I saw was disgusting. I watched as he stroked your cheek, and how he touch your hair, lips and nose with his hand. He kept kissing you and kissed your breast area.. but you stayed still. I watched as he said that God wanted him to do this, to help you. You sat still with a confused look, not understanding what he meant but nodding and saying 'Yes Father'" Tatiana took a pause.
"I was sure I was just tired, and that I'd imagined it, but after that meeting with him. I put my hand on your shoulder and you instantly jumped, I wondered what else he did to you. Indeed there were many rumours spreading about him but none of us wanted to believe that things. I only saw him doing this monstrosity twice. Once in your vision and once now." Tatiana sighed. I felt shivers go down my spine as Cian woke up and took the story over.
"That morning after the meeting with Rasputin little Marie told me about, you were weird. You began crying and I asked what was wrong, you answered my stupid fifteen year old brain with a beautiful religious speech about God and life. I had no idea what you meant so I just nodded, but my gut never lies and I felt weird. Later, all of you guys were outside along with me who talked to you and Anya. Mama called you guys in for tea, I prepared it and Rasputin was there, you was sipping tea and I noticed a displeased look on your face. You quickly drank all your tea despite it being literally boiling hot." Cian took a deep breath.
"You didn't feel well and complained about being lightheaded. Mama scolded you for drinking tea too fast. Anastasie pleaded for you to continue to play with you in the gardens. You agreed both excused yourselves, I was told to watch. You started to chase her and was so close but you fell. You fell right to the ground, I screamed and ran to you, Anastasie turned to see you. Everybody ran and I took you to a separate room. Alix was in so much distress she didn't shoo the grand duchesses out." I listened, he might be stupid in his opinion but good at explaining. "Rasputin started doing his prayers, and by the time Anna shooed everybody out, that the any of us saw you lying in that sick room." Cian finished.
