Brat tamer's brat || Taekook

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Jungkook's Pov-

When you get a busy life that you love, days pass like hours. It's been 5 years I have entered this field of music with a burning passion, nd every day it's a new experience for me. Though when I talk about new experience, let me tell you, not every thing is good. 

Just like my jealousy. My jealous self is absolute retard and would curse at every thing around me. Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure and, under certain circumstances, can be life-threatening. So, I would like to keep it under control but it's hard when the one I love with my all is having the moment of his life with a five foot nothing girl. She can't even throw a punch if someone attacked my lil mouse.

Though they say they are friends, does that girl thinks my eye balls are shoved somewhere in deep that I can't see the twinkling in her eyes when she looks at my cub? My lil mouse! My tiger! Mine! I know my baby would never lie, but I don't believe that dwarf at all! What if she feeds him some magical potion and traps him with a baby! No, I can't let this happen. I have to do something.

"Hyung, why does your face looks like you are plotting a murder?" Tae's words pulled me out of my thoughts and now I noticed him sitting right in front of me, with a lollipop. It was me who gave it to him. He once wanted to try cigarettes' but I shoved that in his mouth as a replacement and now he is habitual to it.

"Huh? why?"

"Your face is telling me you are." 

Only if this boy could read eyes this well, I mean love filled eyes.

"Leave all that, aren't you going out with that five foot nothing?" I could feel the bitterness on my tongue as I muttered out those words to him. See, this is what I meant when I said jealousy is toxic.

"She is 5'2 and yea, thanks for reminding!"

And just like that, he is gone. I am 25. A grown man. But still, I am behaving like a teen boy who's girlfriend has been hanging around with her guy friends.

It's been weeks he started his last year of pre college, and the way that dwarf has been sticking around is making me loss the sanity that I never knew I had. From group projects to, group studies, this semi circle of a group has been giving me head ache. Not my cub, but that girl.

Throwing away my phone I laid on our bed and buried my face in the tiger plushie I brought him two years ago on our first date, well one sided date. It smelled like him, which made me more insane wanting to drown in his scent while doing the same to him. Want him to smell like me by every inch, want him to be engulfed by me, so he can remember by his every breath, who he belongs to. Who will be the one to claim him, to be there with him for his every step, to fight off the nightmares in his dreams as well as life. Who will never leave his side ever, even if died.

I understood this long ago, that I can't look away from him. Can't look at others with the love as all the love I had, it all got reserved for Kim Taehyung long ago. I don't have the ability to love anyone else anymore. I am like the devotee who just sits at the feet of his god without wanting anything in return, devoted my life completely to him.

While I was crying over my fate, I heard door shutting and some shuffling. Tae is back? I thought he came back too soon until I looked at the clock. I have been in this position for two hours? Pretty good record as last time it was one hour. Good going Jeon Jungkook, make it 5 hours next time. This is what they call meditation, no? Sitting or lying at the same place for hours and hours. 

Looking outside from the window, it was dark. It might be eight o'clock, not like it matters. Sighing I got on my feet, ready to go out when I heard something. It was from Tae's room which that boy rarely used. Was he crying? Wait, why would he cry? Did he proposed and that five foot nothing rejected my tiger? She wouldn't dare! Even if I love him and it would basically tear me apart, I still can't let my baby go through the pain of rejection. I quickly marched towards the door which is connected to his room when his voice again rang in my ears, louder this time and my whole body went cold.

Was he jerking off? Right after coming from their outing, that means he was attracted to that, that girl. Never in my whole life I thought something could hurt me this much. But I was again proved wrong. Every sound, so sinful, so arousing yet felt so wrong and painful to my ears. Hearing the one you love, screaming for someone else, it made my heart bleed. His moans went louder, making my throat hurt with the sounds begging to release as my vision got blurry. I turned around, stumbling on my steps to my bed, to that tiger species when I heard his voice, loud and clear in the highest pitch.

"Ahhh Jun-gkook hyung!!!"

My brain must be malfunctioning cause did I hear him moan out my name, loud and clear? I wiped my tears in that plushie as I quickly stood up. I can't stop myself, I need to see what's happening. What if he was shot and wanted me for help while I was here having the breakdown of my life? I am so fucking dumb! 

I quickly ran to the door and without any thought, I turned the nob with a click and bless the door, it never made a sound opening otherwise the sight in front of me would have been something else.

Right in front of me was, a naked ass, his naked ass with something shoved inside while his face was buried in sheets, breathing heavily. In front of his all bare self, was his laptop but with my picture on display. It was the one he took while we were in gym, a candid shot of me doing pull ups. 

I was no fool to understand what he was doing. But, I am devil at times for him. And right now, its time. I dragged the single couch chair near the bed to just behind him and settled myself comfortably on it. 

"Turn around lil mouse." 

The way he flinched and sat on his ass only to hiss in pain or pleasure, that I don't know. It told me he was too out to notice me in his room. His face was flushed red, but fear was clear on his face as he nervously chewed on his lips and by the look it seemed like he even stopped breathing. With blankets around him, he quickly bundled himself in them, covering everything except his face.

No words were leaving his mouth but his eyes were speaking a lot. Seeing him getting teary by my gaze over him, a wave of regret washed over me but I got over it as soon as I felt it. Knowing him, he will regret his actions but won't open his mouth unless asked.

"What were you doing tiger? Sneaking behind my back? Are you doing something dirty?" My questions made his lips wobble as a cry escaped them. He didn't shook his head, nor denied which meant he was accepting all my accusations but still, didn't answer what I asked.

"You didn't got my question? What were you doing?" He gulped a few times, eyes looking back at mine but where mine were filled with coldness and dominance with twinkles of mischief, his were blinded by fear, regret and humiliation. 

"I-I was, Hayu took m-me to shop, shopping. Hyung, I-I am so-rry, I-" He was breathing heavily with panic all over his face which made me quickly rise up and scoop him in my arms. If my questions are hard to answer, I don't want any answers. 

As I took him on my lap, cradling him softly, he started crying while holding me tightly, refusing to look at me. Somewhere, I have a hunch what's all this about. But I won't say, it's his confession to make. I will, instead provide him all the warmth and comfort he wants while supporting him in his every step.

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Coming out to your preferable gender is not something easy :)

~~~glimpse