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Taehyung's POV-

I was drowned in my scripts, not sleeping but reciting them. The vacation was good, refreshing and now I was back in my world, signing movies and dramas. Hyung was out and I too wanted to go. I was about to call him to ask where he is when my phone rang and it was Lucas hyung. I have met him a few times though I think he isn't very fond of my presence. It's fine as he is rooting for Jiminie hyung which he will never get, I won't let him. 

"Hel-"

"Taehyung! Come at the cafe nearby! Jun-jungkook he is-"

"I am on my way." With that I hung up the call as I was already wearing my shoe. I have no idea what happened to hyung for him to be this scared and worried. Thoughts started coming to my mind, bad ones, which made me anxious and scared. I was running at this point, in my oversized loose t-shirt and shorts paired up with the sneakers I jumped in randomly. I don't care about what someone thinks, all matters is my hyung who needs me. Running like a madman through the lane down the shop, ignoring all the stares I reached to the stop.

"Whe-re" I breathed out as I hung on to the door, breathing heavily with the running. As I stood on the door I heard it. He was crying, shouting, it reminded me of the years when he used to get panic attack with every small triggers. What must have triggered him to get things this worse?

"Hyung!" Rushing to him as he was cornered on his seat, surrounded by Lucas and a few elders, I took his face into my palm forcing him to look at me.

"Jungkook hyung, look at me. You are with me hyungie, you are safe. I am here, she is not here, she won't get to you. Breath Koo, breath for me." He was shivering as he kept shaking his head as no, trying to take big gasps. He was like this in the early days when it happened. It was hard not to cry out loud. It hurt me to see him like this all again, it was like we were back to square one.

"Hyungie look at Tae, please. I am with you, Tae is here, hyung. Tae is here with you." Finally I noticed him staring at me which gave me a lil hope.

"Yes, I am here, look your Tae is right here with you. You are safe, take a breath hyung. Like me, in, breath in, yes not breath out. Just like this,"

"Breath in, breath out, you are doing great. Now look at me, hold my hands. Breath in, and breath out. Very well. You are so brave my hyung, so strong." I muttered soft encouraging words while wiping his tears and hands which were some how drenched in soup. The soup must be hot for his hands to get red rashes. 

"Can I get ice? Or cold water?" I asked while pulling him to my chest, shushing him as he kept gasping and sniffing. His heart was beating frantically, his hands clutching on my clothes in a death grip and it made me afraid just how much was he scared? 

Lucas hyung brought in a bowl of ice while the owner send away the crowd, back at their seat or out of the cafe. I took the ice cubes nd folded them into hyung's handkerchief before rubbing it over the red portion of his hands. Ice often helps with both burning and anxiety or panic attacks. 

"Hyung." I heard a low hum as he pushed himself more on me, trying to hide in my neck. There's no way I am letting hyung walk all the way back home.

"Lucas hyung, from his phone, call Jiminie and ask him to get a car right outside the cafe as soon as possible. It's an emergency." He nodded and did as told. I can just hope someone's nearby and arrives soon. Hyung's clothes are all messed, so is his mind. I can't get him out in public like this. Back in days, he refused to leave his room for days whenever he got a panic attack and if forced he used to get scared to the point of fainting.

"Tae." I hummed at his call, threading my fingers through his hair, letting him know I am here and didn't left him. He was still crying, I could feel the wetness, tear drops rolling down on my neck as he sobbed silently in my neck, hands clutching my one hand for a sense of security. 

People were whispering around me but that wasn't my concern. I didn't expect him to go through all that once again, right when he thought he was over it. These attacks always shattered his confidence in himself. 

I remember him asking as a child, why he would go to gym or would forge his body through so much, if he had any girlfriend to show off. His reply to this made me chill and stiff on my feet. He said he is doing all this to protect himself, so next time no one could get their hands on him inappropriately. 

"Tae!" My head jerked up to Jimin hyung hearing his voice while his own steps halted at the scene. But putting his own thoughts aside he rushed to us, pulling away the chairs to make it easier for me to stand with hyung.

"Hyungie, let's go home. Stand for me, please." I requested to which he complied without any protest. With quick but steady steps I walked out with hyung, his face hidden with the hat as I nudged him to get in the car.

"Wh-ehr-"

"Home, we are going away from these people, going to be in our room, tuck you in warm blankets." I answered him calmly yet with careful choice of words to not trigger his panic attack. He breathed out, still high on alert before I made him lay down on my lap. Without any protest he laid his head on my lap, snuggling his face into my stomach with his hands curled around my waist.

"Tae." It was Jimin hyung, he was driving while Lucas hyung, he didn't come with us for some reasons. I know what hyung was asking but even I don't know what lead to this.

"Don't know hyung, but I will find out. What or who it is." I will find out and then I will deal with them myself. My fingers caressed his tear stained cheeks which were still wet as he tightened and loosen his hold every then and now. He is big, really big and buff guy but when he curls like this, he looks so small and vulnerable that it hurts to witness this. 

"We are home." I looked down at hyung, brushing away his hair as I try to pull him away.

"We are home hyung, let's go in."

"N-no. You-Tae is home. Don't l-leave." I pressed my lip as I took deep breaths to calm myself. If I could, I would gut that woman alive who terrorized him for his life for her own filthy pleasure.

"I am not leaving, let's go in. We will get you warm milk and tuck you in a bed where I will sing for you." It did the work and he sat up, getting out after me. Jimin hyung quickly unlocked the door and rushed to kitchen, probably to get the warm milk ready. I took him to bedroom and made him sit on bed before calmly and carefully getting rid of his stained shirt. He preferred no clothes so I didn't troubled with making him wear anything. 

"Here, apply this on his hand, the rashes are still evident." Jimin hyung brought in an ointment for burns which I quickly applied on the burnt area. He was looking at my actions, his eye trailing me like a baby who feared to be left alone. 

Someone rang the door bell so Jiminie hyung left to see who it was while I wiped his face with a clean towel before getting into bed. Without any words he laid his head onto my lap, hiding his face as I stroked his ears before I started singing.


"She looks like a blue parrotWould you come fly to me?I want some good day, good day, good dayGood day, good day"


"Looks like a winter bearYou sleep so happilyI wish you a good night, good night, good nightGood night, good night" 


He reminds me of a winter bear, sleeping so calmly in the harshness. He is my winter bear.

"Imagine your face, say hello to meThen all the bad days, they're nothing to meWith you, ooh, ooh, ooh, oohWinter bear'


He loves this verse specially. I could feel him loosening up a bit, his heart beat going back at normal as I caressed his hair and continued to sing.

"Ooh, ooh, oohSleep like a winter bearOoh, ooh, oohSleep like a winter bear"


My winter bear, my happiness.



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let's sit together and play Taehyung's playlist of all songs on loop. let's see who cries first.

~~~glimpse

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