My ray of sunshine (on hold)

Blair

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"I was born sick,
but I love it."
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I want to shoot my brains out.

So, to sum up everything that happened this week:

1.I was sa, AGAIN.

2.the whole school found out I was raped.

3.the whole school found out I filed a complaint.

4.my crush kissed my best, and only, friend.

5.my best friend kissed my crush.

And now, I'm in Ian's birthday party, yes, the same party he's going to come out.

He made a speech and all, but I know him, he'll probably just end up saying ,'I'm fruity.' Or some shit like that.

Ian walked up to me, with a cup of whisky. "Hey, you okay Blair? You can leave you know, I know you're going through a lot at the moment and-"

I took the cup of whisky, downing it in one time, "now I'm fine, see?"

He raised his brows, "I'm starting to like sad Blair."

At least one of us does.

"Want me to kick Ace butt?" He asked, I knew he was serious.

I shook my head.

He looked disappointed, and asked, "What about Amber?"

I raised my eyebrows this time, "You're going to hit a girl?"

He shook his head, "you can hit her, you're a girl."

I laughed, "that's good to know."

He laughed with me, "shit, I kinda want to back off, and not tell my family."

I know.

But he can't.

He knows he can't.

If he won't do this now, he might never do this.

"Listen, I'm here for you, and if your mom has something bad to say about who you are, remember, I'm a girl, I can kick her ass." I joked.

He kept laughing, "You're going to hit my mom?" 

I nodded, "I want to see her try to say something bad, you're the best person I know Ian."

He laughed, "better than Ace?"

I nodded, "well, you're gay, and my best friend, so the only way to compete with Ace, you'll need to kiss him."

He scrunched his nose, "never, that man looks hot, I gotta admit, but definitely not my type."

"And who is your type?" I asked, laughing.

He thought about it for a second, then replied, "ryan reynolds."

I laughed even louder, "honestly, same."