[DISCONTINUED] The only one I see • Tomboo/Allium duo

Chapter 14

A/N

Little bit of angsty angst here. Shit ton of negative self talk, little tiny ED mention, don't read if that's gonna trigger you. Um- they basically just lay in bed. That's it.

Ranboo POV:

            Tommy cried for about an hour. Then he just abruptly stopped. About an hour and a half into his crying, the tears had just stopped flowing. Maybe he had shed all the tears away, and he was just left with his feelings. I had been stroking the back of his head, scratching at the spot right at the base of his ears, kissing his head. Whatever I could do to calm him down. And he eventually did, of course.

            "I'm sorry," he mumbled in a broken voice, and I swear my heart shattered right then. What did my bunny do to deserve this? He was raped. He was the sweetest little thing in the world, and something so terrible happened to him. Bad things really do happen to the best people, don't they? Tommy was the best person on this planet. No, he's the best person in this universe. And every other one. No one is better than him. 

           "It's okay, bun. You don't need to be sorry. You have every right to cry. Something terrible happened to you. You're safe now. I love you," I said back to him, and kissed his head. Shit, did I just say I loved him? Hopefully he didn't notice. I do love him, of course, more than anything, but he probably thinks it's too early. We haven't even been dating for that long. Most people would think it's too early. Maybe Tommy's different. Maybe he loves me back. He does. I know he does.

            Or.. he doesn't. Because he didn't say anything back. He was completely silent. I couldn't even hear him breathe. I fucked up, didn't I? He's gonna leave me. Well, he can't. He will never leave me. He's mine. No one else is ever going to touch him, love him, care for him like I can. Like I do. If he doesn't love me now, he will tomorrow. Or the next day, or the next. It doesn't matter how many days it takes, it doesn't matter how long I have to wait, he will love me. He's never leaving me. Even after death. We will be buried together. Of course, I'd never say any of that to him. But it's still true nonetheless. Even if he doesn't know it. Yet. 

Tommy POV:

             Did I mishear? I swear Ran said that he loved me. We haven't even been dating a month, and he loves me? Isn't that too fast? I wouldn't know, obviously, because he's my first boyfriend, but it has to be too fast. We're moving too fast. We're a speeding fucking train, and this isn't okay. Of course, I'm not gonna break up with him but.. What the fuck? Who loves someone that fast? It's crazy. He's not crazy, of course. But.. more importantly, who would love me that fast? An anorexic, inexperienced, whiny, annoying, sensitive little bunny. Who needs someone to protect him, someone to take care of him, someone to make sure he eats. I'm so fucking worthless. Who could ever love me? The only reason hybrids were created was so that humans had more sex toys. Obviously, that was stopped immediately by.. someone with a good heart, but it's still the only reason we exist. 

            Why did my thoughts always have to spiral? I needed to focus on one thing, and that was Ran saying he loved me. Why would he say that? I've already been down that spiral. He loves me.  I should just accept that he does. Even if I don't quite love him back yet. I'm not gonna leave him. That'd be kind of dramatic, right? I've never had a boyfriend before, which is sad, but I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. Do I say it back, do I stay quiet? Do I love him? It's definitely too early. But... he is the only person who takes care of me. The only person who has ever really  taken care of me. So maybe I should just say it back. Then he'll be happy. And that's what I'm supposed to do. I'm supposed to make him happy. If he's happy, then he'll continue to take care of me. And if I don't make him happy, he'll leave me. I can't have that. Then I'll be alone. Again. Like I've been my entire life. That can't happen.

            "Ran..? I love you too," I mumbled, and then just went quiet. I wasn't sure if my words were true, and I barely believed myself, but all that mattered was that he believed me, and he was happy. That was most important. It didn't matter if it was a lie. As long as he didn't detect it. I didn't sound like I was lying, surely. No way he noticed. No way in hell.

Ranboo POV:

            Tommy lied. It was so easy to tell. He's a shitty liar. But it was cute he was trying to make me happy. He wants to make me happy. He want's to please me. God, what a cute little bunny. My bunny. And he always will be. No matter what. I don't want to say I've basically trapped him like prey, but he is snared. He can't leave me. And why would he? He depends on me already, it's so obvious. So he can't leave. He will never. Even if he doesn't know it yet, he does love me. I'm the only person who cares about him. And he knows it. Why would he leave the only person who cares about him, and loves him, and takes care of him, and cuddles him? He just wouldn't. And if he did, I would just get him back. He's with me forever. He's never ever leaving me.

A/N

This isn't my best chapter, but I hope y'all enjoy. It's kind of rushed but um- Idc. 1000 words on the dot.