I really want you to hate me

Chapter 33

Daniella

The whole situation was so fucking stupid. I should have just told her what happened. She would understand, she would forgive me. She had to forgive me. I didn't do anything. I called her and she didn't pick up, she wasn't with Hayley and wasn't with Addie or Max. Where would she go?

I didn't even know where to go to find her. I searched the whole building after her. So I went back to my room and waited for her to return. And eventually she did come back.

"Where the fuck have you been?" I pushed off the bed, furious, rage pulsing in my veins.

"Wow, you look mad." She smiled with her stupid, adorable, cute smile.

"Are you drunk, Rebekah?" I grabbed her arm, when she almost tripped over her own feet.

"Did you cheat on me, Daniella?" She asked almost jokingly. My jaw clenched.

"I did not." I was honest. I didn't cheat on her. I would never do that.

"And I'm not drunk." She lied. Her eyes were shining, her cheeks were red and she could barely walk.

"You're." I sat her down onto the bed.

"And you did." She leaned back onto her hands.

This situation was fucked up. She didn't give me a chance to explain what happened. She just walked out.

"Stop saying that." I asked her. I went to the mini fridge, grabbed a bottle of water and poured it into a glass for her. I handed it to her, before trying to pull away, but she grabbed my wrist.

"Look me in the eye and tell me that you did nothing that would count as cheating." Her eyes were sad, her teeth sinking into her bottom lip. My heart was clenching painfully as my eyes jumped to the corner of the room.

"I'm sorry." I sank to my knees in front of her again. Just like ours before.

"Tell me what happened." She sobbed, tears rolling down on her cheek. I wanted to tell her what happened, but I didn't want to see her cry. I hated when I made her cry.

"I was at the bar," I sat back to my legs, looking at her while she looked anywhere but me. "We grabbed a few drinks together. She was there, offering to buy me some drinks and I let her. She said that she has some very expensive stuff we could drink and I didn't think about it anything, because I never think about anyone else other than you." I grabbed her hands, pulling her attention at me.

"Of course." She scoffed and murmured.

"Bekah," I grabbed her face. "You're my life. My day begins and ends with you. I love you."

"I love you. But I'm so afraid of loving you this deeply. I'm so afraid of you leaving me." My thumb caressed her cheek.

"I would never-" I tried to explain.

"Look at us now, Dani!"

"I'm not leaving, I'm here, I'm not going anywhere." I stood my ground, I wasn't going anywhere.

"Dani-" She wanted to stand up, but I didn't let her.

"Bekah please, let me finish." I took a deep breath. "We went up to her room. We drank. I played with my bracelet and it broke so I took it down onto the table. She kissed me, but I stopped her. I stopped her and left. I left so fast that I left my bracelet there. I would never ever cheat on you, because I... I love you so fucking much, Bekah. I desire everything about you. I burn for you. I couldn't sleep in the last weeks because you weren't near me. I can't function without you by my side."