I really want you to hate me

Chapter 12

Rebekah

I was furious. She made me furious. One of my reasons I decided to attend the trip was that she won't be here and I would have days without her presence. I had to get away from her. My mind knew that, my body was the problem. It wanted everything she could give me. I wanted to kiss her so badly while sitting in her lap, I wanted to grind on it to create more friction. Now my intentions were very different. I wanted to hit her, slap that stupid grin off her face.

"I don't understand." Addison shook her head, looking at her confused.

I'm sure I will find something to play with.

Max chuckled in a low voice in front of us. It seemed like Hayley let go of Daniella and walked after Max as a puppy.

"I'm just saying that I will find something to entertain myself with." Daniella looked at her, suddenly feeling empty that her eyes were not on me. "Now, leave us alone. We have a project to work on."

"Don't! Stay!" I looked at Addie. She could not leave me here with her, but Max and Hayley already stood up.

In the end Addie stayed, so it was only the three of us in the library. Daniella and I chose a book for her to read. A modern romance novel. The thought that maybe she should chose a sapphic novel ran through my mind, but I didn't say anything.

"So I'm reading Jane Eyre and you are reading this. When we both are finished we share the information with each other. We talk about the differences and the similarities."

"You're gonna read my book too, right?" She smirked, like she knew me so damn well.

"No" I answered way quicker than I should. She raised an eyebrow. "Yes." I corrected myself. Addie giggled next to me, sharing a look with Daniella.

I was sure she would be acting very differently if she would know about what happened between the two of us. I didn't tell her. Not because I felt ashamed. Rather because I did not. I should, and I didn't. It felt natural, like I was made to feel her, to touch her.

What should I tell her? Hey, Addie! I know that we don't like Daniella, but somehow I slept with her. I lost my virginity with her. And it was good. It felt better than anything. And I want to do it again. And again. Until I can't think about anything else.

For a moment I let my eyes linger on Addison. Her shiny red lockes fell around her shoulder, little freckles were on her cheeks and nose. Her brown eyes shone with friendliness. She was beautiful, cute. She had a great body too. God, stop! This is wrong!

I looked away, my eyes locking on Daniella's. The earlier smirk grew, letting me know that she saw everything I did in the last 30 seconds.

"I have to go to the restroom. I'll be back." Addie excused herself, leaving us behind. The silence could be cut between us. She opened her mouth to say something.

"Don't. I don't want to hear your excuses. You want to come on the trip and mess with me more? Do it. I don't care."

"I only wanted to ask if you checked her out before or just now, after our little weekend?" I looked at her to see her grinning. I leaned back, putting my mask on, crossing my arms around my chest.

"I didn't check her out." I lied.

"Oh you so did." She let her head fall back while laughing. It sounded like some kind of music. "Don't be embarrassed, she is definitely something pleasurable to look at." Something moved into me and I shifted in my seat. I didn't like the way she talked. I bit my tongue to keep the words in and looked away. "Not as pleasurable as you, but she looks good too." The warm feeling spread through my chest.