March 6th 2009
As I slowly open my eyes, I realize that I'm not in my own bed. I look around and see my Jessica sleeping soundly next to me. I can't help but smile at the sight of her. It feels comforting to wake up next to someone you love. I stretch my arms and legs and snuggle up closer to her. We lay there for a few moments, just enjoying the warmth of each other's company. Eventually, we both get up and start our morning routine together. We make breakfast, sip coffee, and chat about our plans for the day. It's a peaceful and intimate moment that makes me feel grateful for our relationship.
"where is Felix" I asked Jessica.
" Don't worry he's at a friend's place, I sent him there for.. you know" she replied with a little wink. I can't help but fall for her even harder. I really didn't think it was possible to fall for her any harder, but here I am. Every moment spent with her seems to deepen my love for her. The way she laughs at my jokes, the sound of her voice, the way she looks at me - all of it makes my heart skip a beat. I find myself constantly thinking about her and wanting to be around her all the time. Even the smallest things she does can make my heart flutter. I feel like I've found my soulmate and I can't imagine my life without her. It's amazing how love can continue to grow and evolve over time, and I'm excited to see where our journey together takes us.
But then a thought sent me to a downward spiral. I sat thinking about my addictions, I can't help but worry about how they might ruin my relationship with her. I know that I need to address my issues and seek help, but it's hard to admit that I have a problem. I don't want to disappoint her or let her down. I'm afraid that she might not understand or might even leave me if I tell her about my struggles. But at the same time, I know that keeping it a secret is not sustainable in the long run. It's a constant battle in my mind, and it's taking a toll on me. I love her so much, and I don't want my addictions to get in the way of our happiness. I know that I need to be honest with her and work on myself, but it's easier said than done.
Let's just say I got over my addictions, I'm happy and married to Jessica. What if I get cancer or some shit like that..I'm fucking overthinking
As I was feeling down and overwhelmed with my thoughts, Jessica wrapped her arms around me and gave me a warm hug. Her embrace felt like a comforting blanket that shielded me from all my worries. I could feel the weight lifting off my shoulders, and for a moment, everything felt okay. It was as if she knew exactly what I needed without me having to say a word. Her hug was not just a physical act, but a reminder that I was not alone in this. I felt her love and support in every squeeze and every breath. In that moment, I knew that no matter what life threw at me, I had her by my side, and everything would be alright. Her hug reassured me that I was loved, appreciated, and that there was nothing we couldn't face together.
