𝐓𝐔𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐈𝐌. | taekook

48. | don't give up on him

CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, IMPLIED SEXUAL CONTENT, NIGHTMARES, ANGST, AND REFERENCES TO PANIC ATTACKS, LYING, CHEATING AND SEXUAL CONTENT 

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As the moonlight cracks in through the blinds, Taehyung hides his face in his knees and tightly secures his arms around his legs, pulling his knees up to his chest. He feels tears cascade down his cheeks and his breathing becomes heavier with each silent moment that passes.

Taehyung grinds his teeth together to calm himself down. He tries his hardest to stop this awful panic attack from washing over him, but nothing works. He sits there, shaking on his bed as his breathing continues to grow heavier.

All those happy memories of him and Jungkook come rushing back to him as he sits in the darkness. They overshadow his body and he finds a small smile tug at his lips, trying to focus on those happy memories – trying to relive those happy memories, rather than banish them.

He casts his teary eyes towards the framed polaroid of the pair. They have bright smiles on their faces, cuddled up beside one another, drowned in blankets and comfortable pillows. The polaroid was taken last week when Jungkook decided to spend the whole week with Taehyung, but he didn't know about the horrible bet at the time.

Taehyung's hand shakily reaches out to grab the framed picture and he snatches it, tightly securing it in his hand. He stares down at the smiley pair and traces his trembly finger over Jungkook's pretty face, softly giggling through tears.

Taehyung misses him so much.

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As they cuddle up beside each other, Jungkook finds tears prickle his brown eyes and he hides his face in Renhoon's neck, soaking his tanned collarbone with tears. Renhoon's arms tighten around him as they cuddle on the bed, and the brunette continues to sob into his neck.

"What's wrong, angel?" Renhoon whispers, and Jungkook cuddles further into his chest, keeping his mouth shut because he doesn't trust his own words. "Did you have a bad dream?"

Jungkook softly nods his head.

"Can I do anything to help?"

Jungkook raises his head and stares into Renhoon's dark eyes, letting the black haired boy wipe the tears from his eyes with the pad of his thumb. He caresses the side of Jungkook's rosy cheek and sadly smiles at him, trying to calm him down.

When Jungkook decidedly doesn't answer because he can't form coherent sentences, Renhoon swallows down his fears, leans forward and briefly presses their lips together. He feels his heart and body swarm with that dreadful feeling as he pulls away, glancing down at their hands that are loosely intertwined.

"Is that better-?"

Jungkook cups his cheeks and rolls onto his stomach, leaning down and connecting their lips together. He doesn't know what washes over him, but kissing Renhoon calms him down and makes him feel better.

Renhoon sadly smiles against his lips and parts from the eager boy, running a careless hand through his messy hair. Jungkook feels more tears run down his cheeks as he returns that sad smile. They both know that nothing will happen between them, but it gives them a sense of comfort from feeling so lonely all the time.

"Go to sleep, angel."

Jungkook rolls over with his back facing Renhoon, feeling more tears roll down his rosy cheeks. He brings his knees up to his chest and twists the promise ring around his index finger, trying to quieten down his pained cries and turn them into small sniffles.