𝐓𝐔𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐈𝐌. | taekook

50. | never felt so alone

CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, IMPLIED SEXUAL CONTENT, ANGST, AND REFERENCES TO PANIC ATTACKS, DOUBLE PENETRATION AND SEXUAL CONTENT

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"Come on, Tae. Let's get back to the dorm."

Taehyung sadly nods his head as Renhoon slings an arm around his waist, helping him walk straight without falling over. Tears completely blur his vision and he can't see a thing, but he knows there are people staring at him, questioning why he's crying so much.

"I-I really love-love him, Ren," Taehyung sniffles, glancing up at the black-haired boy, who refuses to cast his eyes towards him. "May-Maybe I lost my chance with him when he found out about the-the... bet."

Renhoon doesn't answer him. Instead, he focuses on carrying a sobbing Taehyung towards the car, trying to push down the painful feeling in his chest – trying to stop the threatening tears that beg to fall down his cheeks and reflect his pain.

As they continue walking through the busy car park, Renhoon loses his grip around the blonde's waist and he collapses to the floor, sobbing into his hands. He can't stop crying, and he doesn't know how many more tears he's got left in him.

"Tae, come on-"

"Don't tell me to fucking 'come on', Ren!" Taehyung snaps, feeling pure anger course through his veins. "I love him so-so fucking much and I-I lost my chance with him... all because of yo-you."

Renhoon curls his fists by his sides and turns around, refusing to look at the boy. He sniffles back tears and stares ahead of him, counting the various cars that are idly parked in the car park, and it does distract him from the throbbing pain that floods his body.

"I-I love him, too, Tae," Renhoon whispers, while Taehyung's eyes widen in surprise. "He means everything to me, but I can't date him."

Taehyung stares at the boy's back and wipes the tears that form in the corners of his eyes, waiting for the younger boy to finish.

"Because-Because I know how much you love him. You two are supposed to be together... but I love him so much, Tae."

Renhoon softly sniffles and feels tears cascade down his cheeks, shakily breathing through each sob. He isn't a robot and he can't hold his emotions in forever, but crying feels really nice and it comforts him in more ways than he wants to admit.

With a frown adorning his face, Taehyung pushes himself away from the concrete floor and walks towards the sniffling boy. He wraps his arms around him, holding the boy's back flush against his chest, and Renhoon places his hands over Taehyung's.

"I'm sorry for ruining everything between you two," Renhoon sniffles, and Taehyung softly chuckles. "You two belong together. I hope you know that."

Taehyung tightens his hold around Renhoon's slim waist and brushes his thumb over his hand, trying to calm down his sobs.

"Let's get back to my dorm. We can cuddle and rant about how much we love that adorable dork," Taehyung chuckles, and Renhoon finds a small smile tug at his lips. "Does that sound good?"

Renhoon turns around and softly smiles at the blonde, leaning forward and pressing a gentle kiss against his forehead.

"Let's do it."

The pair lace their hands together and walk towards Taehyung's car, sharing that stabbing feeling of pain in their chest.

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