Fallen Petals and Stolen Kisses (A hanahaki Story)

Hero work and Familial love

Monoma was pissed.

And rightfully so.

I wished they would just ignore me...

"Do you have any idea how long we waited?!" Monoma shouts at me and I wince. I stand just outside his dorm. "Hours, Kaminari, Fucking Hours!"

"Im sorry. I fell asleep, I swear I didnt mean to." For as much as I slept, I still felt exhausted.

"Well since school is off for the weekend we will be having a talk NOW!"

"Can you stop shouting? Im right here." I say it tiredly, I just want to rest, Maybe hang out with the Bakusquad. Anyone but the Person, Oh wait, People that I have no chance on being with.

"Fine. Sorry." Monoma says. He doesnt mean it. "Inside."

I follow his demand willingly and immediately spot Shinsou. Hes shirtless and drinking a coffee. He has major bedhead and is clearly exhausted but hes still adorable. I imagine touching his toned chest.

The flowers try to make their way up my throat as I let out a soft cough.

Bad Denki.

The situation is bad enough.

"Soooo..." I say. "What do you guys want to talk about?"

Shinsou audibly sighs as he sets down his coffee mug.

"I think you know why, Denks." Shinsou says. He sounds as exhausted as he looks. He leans on Monomas desk.

"I really dont." I say, Playing dumb.

Whats new? I am an idiot after all.

"Oh maybe the fact you've been avoiding us ever since Shinsou told you were together? Ooh or Maybe its because you've been acting like a total ass? Or maybe!" Monoma rants, But hes abruptly cut off as Shinsou gives him a stern look, Rivaling that of Aizawa.

"What hes saying is-" Shinsou begins.

"Oh I know exactly what he's saying." I say it harsher than I meant but My lungs hurt from holding in my breath so I don't cough up more petals and my throat is sore from all the coughing.

"Denki... What up with you?" Shinsou asks softly.

"Nothing is up. Its just..." I sigh. "I've been Tired, and sick, and I miss my mom."

"Oh honey..." Monoma says, All the anger leaving his tone as he approaches me and gives me a tight hug. "Im sorry. I shouldnt have yelled."

Shinsou joins next.

"Were here for you. If you ever need us, okay?" I nod. Afraid to speak. Their scents envelop me like a soft comforting blanket, But I need to cough, Vomit, Spit these petals out of my mouth.

"I gotta go." I mumble softly and leave their tight embrace. As soon as im out of their sight I race for the community bathroom. I dont even bother locking the stall door as I gag and cough up the petals.

What I failed to realize though was someone had followed me in.

"Hey dude, You okay?" Sero says as he enters the small stall. I flush the toilet trying to hide the evidence but he spots it before its gone. "Denki, were those... Were those petals and... Blood?"

He looks at me with concern as I wipe the blood of my lips and chin.

"No?" I try and say it convincingly, but it sounds like a question.

"Hanahaki..? Yeah. I suppose that would explain it. Lets get you to whoever you like or to recovery girl, Or maybe Aizawa? We gotta get you fixed."

"You can't tell anyone Sero!" I realize I'm damn near shouting so I drop my volume. "Im not getting the surgery and the people I like are already partners."

Realization dawns on him.

"Dude, you mean you like Shinsou and Monoma? Like for real, for real?"

"I guess so. Well Ill certainly be falling for them!" I try to joke but it falls flat on its face.

"Not funny bro."

"Sorry, Sorry. Im not gonna take that root either so dont worry."

"Good. Cause id rather not to have to save my best friend from being a pancake." He says seriously.

"Seriously Im sorry. No more suicide jokes, got it."

"Are you okay?"

"Honestly? Probably not. Im still in the early stages of the disease so i should have a little under a year."

"Youll confess or get the surgery before then yeah?"

"Yeah." I lie. I think he knows it. I think he knows I didnt plan on doing the surgery. And I certainly wouldn't be confessing anytime soon.

Death.

Id certainly thought about it a lot when I was younger.

Suicide certainly would be an easy way out.

No.

No. I wouldnt.

No I couldnt do that. Im not gonna die like that. I should die for something good.

Is that really what I think though? Or is it my mother talking?

I dont even want to be a hero.

Who am I kidding.

Even if I wanted to be one I couldnt be.

Fat.

Worthless.

Dumb.

Uncontrollable.

Weak.

Words. All just words. But they hurt all the same. Hearing them uttered from classmates, Old friends, Teachers, Family.

Would I ever be enough?

"Sero I think I want to be alone for a little bit. Ill see you later at movie night okay?"

"Denki I dont think I should."

"Why not?"

"What if you do something youll regret?" He glances down at my wrists quickly but tries to play it off.

"Im not going to. I promise. You can even check me later if you want."

"Okay. Yeah. I love you man. Dont fall back into old habits." He hugs me softly before ruffling my hair and pulling away with a smile. "Youll do whats right eventually. I believe you will, whole heartedly."

"And whats right?"

"Keeping yourself alive."

Hello Lovelies! Thought id build up some more characters the next few chapters while delving into a few of my personal head cannons about his past. I should warn you that if you havent read the Description of the book, You should. It contains some of the Possible triggers this book will likely contain. Stay safe.

-Love Saturn