Him

The Drive

The lady at the front desk gave me my prescription and told me we had to pick it up from the CVS pharmacy. It hurt to fucking walk. It hurt to breath or do anything. Alex helped me down to the car and when I went to bend over to get into car, everything lit on fucking fire. I let out a small whimper and Alex stopped putting me in the car for a quick second. "You good Ari?" He asked concerned. "Yea just get me in the fucking car." I said and he continued to lower me into the car. I put in my headphones and listened to music not caring if it was full fucking blast. Music was my escape. 'I look like literal fucking shit.' I thought to myself. My beautiful black hair was greasy as fuck. My face looked fucked up and you could barely see my blue eyes. My button nose wasn't broken so that was a relief. My face looks sunken in though. My bottom lip was huge and I had stitches in my right eyebrow along with my chin and left side of cheek. I smiled and chuckled a little bit knowing those would leave nice scars. I lifted up my shirt and saw some stitches across my belly. I paused my music for a second. "What happened to my stomach?" I asked. My mom side-eyed me and looked nervous to me. "GOD DAMNIT TELL ME WHERE I GOT THIS!!" I yelled at my mom, making her flinch. I felt bad for making her flinch but I needed information. "Ben. Was trying to kill you, Aira. He said he was gonna gut you. And he started to but Alex stopped him and knocked him out." She said. All I did was nod my head and look out window, resuming my music. 

A light tapping on my shoulder woke me up and I turned my head to my mom. Any slight movement fucking hurt and right now I wish he had just killed me. "Here, take your meds honey." She handed me three pills and I swallowed them eagerly. I looked in the back seat, wincing at the pain, but smiled when I saw Alex fell asleep with his arm over Ash protectively. "Where are we going?" I asked my mom turning my head to look at her. "We're going back to the house to grab necessities and leaving." She told me straight-forward. I nodded my head and smiled. Finally being happy we were leaving. I put my head back on the cool window, my body relaxing it's muscles after being tense for so long. I closed my eyes for only a minute but opened them as soon as we hit the dirt road signaling we were close to the house. We lived on the countryside of Utah. Green River. Population of 847. It was a small place, but it was my hometown. A part of me was sad to leave but also ecstatic that we were. 

We pulled up to the medium sized gray house and immediately my body tensed back up. I knew Ben wasn't here but this place was still a danger in my wired brain. I looked left and right for any sign of him to be there but I didn't see his black truck anywhere. I told my brain to relax and that it was safe but my body never relaxed. 'he could be here. it's dark and his truck is black. he could've parked it around the back.' I thought. My thoughts weren't helping me calm down at all, in fact they were making it worse. 

Alex was awake by now and he looked just as tense as I was. I looked back at him, the meds had seemingly kicked in, and we didn't need to talk because we said it all with our eyes and body language. "I don't trust this mom." I stated the obvious and she looked tense as well. "I know honey, I don't either." She said. I sighed looking at the door, knowing it was either me or my mom that went in. I obviously wasn't going to allow her to go in, I wasn't gonna take that risk. He already tried killing me multiple times and that didn't bother me. What bothered me was the fact that IF he was in there, he would kill my mom on sight. So when she unbuckled her seatbelt and went to open the car door, I said "No, mom you're not going in there." She stopped and looked at me like I was stupid. So I added on. "At least not by yourself." She sighed and nodded her head towards her saying 'come on.' She didn't want me going in there just as much as I didn't want her going in there. In a swift movement, I unbuckled my seatbelt and opened the car door. "Alex if we're not back in about 10-15 minutes, you're going to come in and see what's up. Got it?" I informed him and he just nodded his head and pulled out his phone, setting a timer. I closed my door as well did my mother. We both sighed looking at each other. I walked over to her and walked in front, in a protective stance. 

I walked funny because of how low my sweats were sagging. I heard my mom chuckle behind me and I smirked, walking funnier. She ended up full blown laughing and I smiled knowing I was making her laugh in a scary situation for the both of us. We got to the front steps of the porch and I walked up them and waited for my mom at the front door. She walked up hesitantly and I held my breath when opening the door.