All that you are, is all that I'll ever need

A big change

( a timejump of a month. I want this story to be mostly about Seyfer, so the other are more on the background. In this month ifakat already told Asuman about Fuat's dead. She went to her parents because she couldn't process the pain of losing her husband)

A month passed. The house still has grief. There is like no color in the house. Grandpa, gulgun, Orhan, Ferit... Everyone forgot what a smile was. It's like Fuat took the happines of the house with him. Thankfuly everyone was doing better. Seyran's support was doing Ferit really good . Ifakat and the others keep Gulgun strong by telling her that she has a reason to live.... That reason is Ferit and Seyran.  She wants to be there for Ferit, but the pain is huge.

It was morning.

Seyran woke up and was still in bed next to Ferit. She just watched him sleeping which she always enjoyed. She was very happy that since last week he started to sleep more. Ferit really does need the sleep. She strokes his face slowly. Starting from the eyebrows down to the lips. Very gentle.

Suddenly she feels nauseous. She covers her mouth with her hand and runs to the bathroom.  She stood up so fast that Ferit woke up. Thankfully she was in time and puked. " Seyran" he said. It took him a couple seconds to realize what happened. He quikly stood up and went after her to see if she was okay. Ferit saw Seyran puking, so he grabbed her hair while patting her back. He was very worried.

Seyran then washed her face. He slowly helped her by holding her hand and bringing her to the bed. " we wil go to the hospital" he said " No ferit why?" He was very worried that something was wrong. " what do you mean why? You aren't feeling well" he said" Yea but thats okay. I don't think im that sick to go to the hospital she said" " Seyran don't do this please" she saw how worried he was, but there was seriously no need for a doctor" She hold his face soflty" Ferit please listen to me, I just puked Im honestly okay..... really ... I promise." He then grabbed her hand and kissed it " Okay, fine we won't go to the hospital, but if something like this happens again... I won't ask your opinion and we will go" he said, she smiled because she liked it when he was worried about her. Then she kissed his cheeck " Love you".

A couple minutes passed. Ferit decided to go and take a look at his mom. " Ferit you go I'll clean the room a little bit and come okay?" " Tamam what you want" he said. So ferit left the room and seyran closed the door. She wasn't actually going to clean the room. Seyran felt very often nausion lately and not herself.  She walked back and forth while holding her hair ... " nah... after 1 time thats not possible.." she said " Or maybe it is" she sat down and looked at her closet while piting on her nail. " Okay Seyran calm down" she walked towards her closet and opened it. Then she grabbed a pregnancy test. She took a deep breath " Okay I will just take it and we will see" So seyran walked to the bathroom and locked the door.

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After she took the test she put it down.  A couple minutes passed and she was too scares to look at it. What if it was positive? She didn't even know how to feel about it. Everything was so tense at home... like would they be happy about it? She really was questioning everything too much.... " ugh Seyran calm down... There is a chance its negative too"  so she just stood up and grabbed the test...

She looked at it.... 2 stripes " 2 stripes what does that mean?" Then she looked at the manual . "1 stripe negative... 2-" no way... Seyran couldn't believe what she read " 2 steps positive" no way.... Am I... Seyran , you ... you're .. You are pregnant!"

Then Ferit came in " Askim" he said..." seyran got scared. She put the test in her pocket and opened the door.

Ferit went to hug her. Her smell calmed him down. It was the best cure to his stress or any negativity that entered his path. "How is gulgun anne doing"  he breathed our deeply " Yes ... she is kinda okay. I can still see the pain in her eyes you know. Seeing mom like that is terrible.... She seems to be scared to lose me too. Our convo was mostly about her being too scared to lose me." He said while looking said.  Seyran hugged him even tighter. She couldn't stand him being sad " Its normal. She lost a child and is scared to lose another child, but ferit remember you are her hope to live. She wants to live for you... the way I can't live without you she can't... we will go trough all of this together" she said he really enjoyed her words and smiled. "He grabbed her by her weist. She put her arms arround his neck. " You always know what to say to make me feel better don't you?" They both smiled..

Seyran didn't know if she would tell him about her pregnancy test or not.." Oh by the way mom said it was better for you to go to the hospital" he said. She really didn't want to go" seyran you have 2 choices... 1 you are coming with me with your own will.......or 2 You are comming with me, but I carry you" she smiled " Ferit I promise you  there is no need to go to the hospital" she said. " Okay fine" he said while taking her arms down and lifting her up " whatever you want" he said " Ferit please put me down..... ferit" he walked towards the door" Ferit! i promise you I know whats wrong. I will tell you everything "  He stopped walking "Promise?"  " Yea I promise" so he put her down.

Seyran took ferit to the coutch.
He sat next to her while she was stressed. He could see it. She was playing with her hands. He looked down and them and hold it with his hand. Then kissed it. Seyran got a little bit emotional. She didn't know if it was from excitement or from the fact that she didn't know how everyone would react in the house. " Look at me. Whatever it is you can tell me. Im your husband. Whatever it is we will endure it together. If it's something bad..." she interupted him  " no no it's not" she said. Seyran stood up" Open your hands and pull your arms out" she said. Ferit looked a little but confused but did what she asked.  Seyran took the pregnancy test out of her pocket and gave it to him... There was a long silence....
Ferit was flabbergasted. His heart heated up. His eyes were seeing something... he was shocked" Seyran" he said while looking at her. She smiled and nodded" Yes" .... " Seyran is this... is this real?".... Ferit stood up. You couldn't really understand from his reaction if he was happy or sad. He sat down on his knees and looked at her stomach. " Is there.... Is that our... does this mean we will become parents?" He said seyran placed her hand onto his hand that was placed on her belly and sat down on the ground just like him. "Yes" she nodded"... " I... Im sorry I didn't know jow to tell this after everything and ..." ferit just kissed her with a lot of passion. That was more than an answer she needed to know how happy he was. " Seyran... Im becoming a parent......." He kissed her whole face. Forst her for head, then her cheeks, then her nose and then her lips. " You know.... Having a child with you was my biggest dream.... This dream will be full filled he said" his words gave her butterflies. Her eyes started to lighten up. So did his. After so much pain and grief... after so much bad tears and darkness.... This baby will bring the light into the house, the light that was taken away. The music that was turned out,  the baby will bring back the souls of the people to who they belong to. This baby will bring happiness. " You know whats funny... I don't know what I feel right now happiness or sadness" he said. It was the best news they both could ever ask for.
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Seyran was laying down on ferits lap. He was stroking her hair, while having wonderful thoughts of the future... seyran then sat up and looked at ferit... " Ferit... I was thinking about something.... " she said " please before you say something let me talk first okay?" He nodded. " shall we name our baby if it's a boy fuat? I think that this baby will lighten up the pain of many people in this house. For example your mom, grandpa.... You and me. Everyone.  We still will have fuat here with us. In heaven and here on earth" she said....

Ferit started to smile " You know.... You are probably the best thing that ever happened to me." He hold her face " How can someone be this pure? This lovely... this good. Im so proud with you in my life.... The fact that you suggested to name our baby to my brother if its a boy, says enough. I love you... I will love you  today, tomorrow and forever. Im thankful that you exist and that you are a part of my life. Im happy that your name is written next to mine. I love you my love" he said. Then he lifted her up and turned her around. They both smiled. It was sadness and happiness that they felt, but the happiness was winning this time.  Ferit can't believe that the baby she carries is his. He is still very shocked that Seyran chose to love him. That her soul and his soul became one. " Ferit... Im happy that you are the father of this baby" she said while giving him a huge peck on the lips.