It's not always Black and White

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Bea's POV

-8am

I wake up and Josh is beside me. I'm so mad at him for coming in drunk. He needs to understand that he can't just use alcohol as an escape when things get tough.

I want him to know that drinking too much has consequences and that it's not okay for him to just do it whenever he feels like it. I need him to understand that when he drinks it doesn't only affect him, it affects me too.

Last night, I noticed that Josh was defending Stephanie more than he has ever defended me. He was protective of her and willing to go to bat for her if necessary.

It made me wonder if maybe, just maybe, Josh still had feelings for her.

It's possible that Josh was just being a good friend to Stephanie and that was all there was to it. But the thought still lingered in the back of my mind. Am I overthinking this, or is there something more to it?

"Goodmorning," he turns to face me

I ignore him.

"Bea," he leans closer, "Babe, what's wrong?"

I roll my eyes-

"Bea, what the fuck is the problem?"

"Josh, calm dow-"

"No, tell me."

"I'm not saying anything unless you lower your voice,"

"Ok, I'm sorry. I've got such a bad headache-"

"That's the problem."

"My headache is the fucking problem?"

"Last night, the drinking, the fight we had about Steph."

He just stares at me, as if I was speaking a different language.

"You don't remember, do you?"

"I- I do. I just remember you getting mad at Steph for no reason."

"She called me a fucking slut Josh-"

"And? She was drunk-"

"Of course, you're making excuses. Because you love her-"

"Yeah, I do love her as a friend. Is that a problem?"

"You love her more than me."

"Why do you think that?"

"I don't think that, I know."

I sit up, "Josh, can we just drop the subject."

"Yeah, it was a stupid one anyways," he mutters to himself.

"See? This is what I mean."

"What. What is the problem now?"

"You don't understand this-"

"Bea, you need to calm down," he goes down the side of the bed to drink-

"Vodka?"

Is he being serious right now.

"Why is it nearly finished?"

"Because I was just drinking it."

"You- you are the problem in this relationship Josh."

"Maybe I'm better off being with Steph."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means, I'm done. I'm fed up."

Someone knocks,

"Come in!"

It's Ryan, just to make everything better.