It's not always Black and White

Can things get worse?

Bea's POV

I'm waking up to the love of my life, Josh. The sun is streaming in and filling our room with a beautiful, warm light. Today is our last full day in Thailand, and I'm going to miss it.

I really love Josh and I don't want to make the same mistakes I have before. I'm so thankful that I can wake up next to him knowing that I get to spend the day with the person I love.

"Good morning Bea,"

"Good morning Josh, you excited for today?"

"Noo, it's our final day here." He moves in closer,

"Yeah, I know. And then we have to go back to school."

He stands up and walks towards the bathroom, "School isn't that bad,"

"Well, it will be when you tell people we're dating."

He walks out of the bathroom, and looks at me. It's as if he's dissapointed and confused at the same time.

"Is there a problem if I tell people?"

"Josh they will-"

"No, Bea. I don't care about everyones opinions."

"Josh, you and I are different skin colours."

"Who cares? It's you and I in the relationship, not them."

I love Josh. Josh was the kind of person that made me feel at ease and was always there for me. He never judged me for the things I did or said, and he always encouraged me to be myself. He was so accepting of me, regardless of my race and background.

He taught me that love is more than just skin deep and that I should never be ashamed of who I am.

No matter the color of our skin, I'll always love him.

"I love you Josh,"

"I love you too, I'm going to have a shower."

As he's in the shower, I stare at the imprint of his body in the bed, the scent of his hair on the pillow. I love hi-

There's a knock

"Come in."

It's Ryan.

Last night, Ryan went to talk to Steph and I haven't seen him since. I know Ryan doesn't want an open relationship, but he likes Steph a lot and I really hope they can find a way to make it work.

I'm really hoping for the best for them both, as I know they care about each other and I want them to be happy.

And I also can't be his shoulder to cry on, it's time for everyone to be happy.

"Can we talk Bea?"

"Sure. How was last night?"

"It was ok. We've decided to stay together and try and make things work, I think she just got scared of the idea of commitment. But besides that we're fine."

"That's good! I'm so happy to hear that,"

He grabs my hand, "But, there's something else I want to talk about."

"What's up?"

"I feel like there's still something there between us," the shower stops, "We still have feelings for eachother..."

I'm lost. This isn't how the story goes, he was supposed to find love because I've found love but-

"I think we owe it to ourselves to explore this underlying passion."

"Ryan-"

And before I knew it his lips were on mine- shit we're kissing. I try to move away, both of us completely oblivious any sounds we have made-