*TRIGGER WARNING DON'T HURT YOUR DAMN SELF*
Kalin's POV
3 weeks later
Memories from The night of Gisselle's party still haunting me.
She left. She just left.
I thought she wanted me but she chose him.
I ruined it .
I ruined all of It
You know what ? I'm not worth it.
I don't deserve her,
He's better.
He's always been.
I lay there looking up at the ceiling.
Blank.
The thoughts rushing through my head.
Why did she have to leave me?
I get up and walk to my drawer. I open the second to last one, showing
Razors.
I took the sharpest one and hold the thin piece of metal to my skin.
Should I really do this ?
Do I deserve it ?
The voice came back.
Of course you deserve this. Your a worthless piece of shit! She never wanted you. She was using you. And you fell for it. She's just another girl who wants nothing but sex.
"N-no, that's not t-true.."
Oh dear yes it is, you really thought you guys were gonna be a thing ? Ha! You are so fucking gullible.
I was shaking.
I Slowly watched it go across my wrist.
More and more blood as I cut deeper.
"I love you Kate" I cry as I cut with more strength.
I always thought this "cutting" shit was stupid,
But I can't live knowing I can't be with her.
He thin piece of metal fell out of my grip and to the carpet floor.
I hesitated to pick it up. I walked over to the bathroom and turned on the faucet.
Shaking like mad I place the thin piece of metal on my skin.
I glided it over on my tan skin, letting red stain it.
Coating the water with a red plush color.
1 cut, 2 cuts, 3. I let out shaky breaths as hot tears ran down my cheeks.
That's it. Just a little deeper Kalin. Maybe you can actually die this time! How happy would she if that happened, hmm ? I bet she would be setting your grave in flames. Can't you see her doing that ?
I look at my forearm now with red streaks of red liquid oozing out.
I felt dizzy. I couldn't live anymore. She was the reason why I lived. And now she's ...
Gone.
That's right Kalin, she didn't love you. That night you guys spent together didn't mean anything. She doesn't want you fool! Now go to sleep~
The voice trailed off and everything went black.
The faucet still running.
