My Dear Love,
You can't understand what it's like
until the situation is presented in front of you
To wait at the restaurant,
dressed to the nine's,
casually glancing at the clock,
telling the waiter that your party is coming,
swirling the water in your glass for the 263th time,
becoming more and more and more irritated,
with each second and second and second,
about to storm out
when
the manager rushes to your table,
flip phone in hand,
hands it to you, whispering "this is for you"
picking it up, hearing "Is this M—-? B—- has been declared kidnapped."
Thinking this is a joke.
B—- is funny.
Then comes crashing down the brunt of reality.
Running,
Crying,
Sobbing,
chaos.
darkness.
lost in confusion
but certain that you would do anything
to be swirling the water in your glass for the 264th time.
Certain that you are, were, will be, in love
because it's hell without him
there's not really any way to accurately describe it
by the fourth day,
I was disgusting:
tired and exhausted from unceasing searches
gaunt from a lack of appetite
dark, heavy bags under eyes from nightmares
Reality can be scary,
but imagination can be scarier.
on the fifth day,
came the phone call
and rushing to the hospital
in old, mismatched pajamas
and running to the hospital bed
to see your face
to see the person that I love
to see the only person that I'll ever need
forever
now
Every morning that I wake up in your arms
reminds me of the times that I woke up alone.
Every smile across your beautiful face
reminds me of the days that you were marred in bruises.
Every time I look into your eyes,
I hope
you'll never know
how strong love can be
I hope
you'll never know
what it's like to wake up alone
I hope
you'll never know
how much I love you.
YOU ARE READING
Red Velvet Pancakes Make Me Cry
Puisi"Somehow, they just didn't taste the same when drenched in cold, salty tears." *updated every Saturday and Wednesday and some days in between