half a heart | beynika

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onika's pov

i groaned as i felt bey moving in the bed. i was sleeping so good next to her and she was disturbing me.

"stoooopp," i whined and buried my head more into her chest. i closed my eyes and felt her hand fall on my lower back.

"i'm sorry, i have to get up, though. i go home today and need to pack." she said and i whined again.

"stop talking and sleep." she placed my hand on her mouth to shut her up. i felt her giggle behind my hand.

"yes, mama, whatever you say." she said, getting comfortable and we went back to sleep.

before we went to sleep, we stayed up talking. we got to know each other better and i loved it.

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i was sitting in bey's lap now, facing her. she rested her hands on my thighs and rubbed them slowly as we spoke to each other.

"i turn twenty in september so i ain't that much younger than you. and don't let the age fool you either." she said to me.

"do you think we could get together?" i asked her. i didn't know why i said that, but i really did want to be with her. even more now that knew brielle was feeling her too.

"honestly? i think so. but i've got to get to know you more. like- you. not what everybody else knows. i did just meet you today, but i know i like you." beyonce kissed my cheek. my face turned hot and red. i hid my face in her neck so she couldn't see but it was too late. she saw.

"aaww, nika. i got you blushing?" she teased me. "good. i like that i have that affect on you with just my words."

i pecked her jaw then looked up at her. "but you live in houston. and i'm all the way up here in new york. how is this going to work? i've never done long distance."

"we could try to to meet up at least once a month. i'm only here now because i was meeting racquel finally."

"so like- can we alternate when we wanna see each other?"

"yep. i can come up here sometimes and you come out there. even as friends. i still want to be around you."

"but i want to be more than just that, bey."

"then apply your pressure, and show me that. i promise you'll have me. i'm not into one night stands or sneaky links. i want a relationship."

i nodded. "i promise. i will."

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bey got up before i did again to go pack. i was so sad to know that she was leaving. i wish i would've gotten to meet her earlier this week so we'd have more time together. i walked into rocky's room with a frown. bey looked over at me. "you're awake now." she smiled, but i didn't smile back. i could feel my attitude brewing.

"nika." she got up from her suitcase and walked to me. she held my hands, looking in my eyes. i stepped away then went into the living room.

i flopped on the couch and didn't talk to anyone. i was so sad about this, and didn't have a clue why i was.

racquel looked at bey as the blonde looked at her.

"listen, nika has abandonment issues. this doesn't happen often. but i've noticed it with me. she gets super attached, sometimes very quickly, and then pretty much loses her mind. she doesn't want to lose you so now she's in her early stages of shutting down. stage one, an attitude to deflect her emotions." rocky explained to bey.