truth
A WEEK AFTER
I was about to look for a gift for my wife when I spotted the familiar person
It's him
Michael kinderson
Patricia first love , her first boyfriend,her life before
When our eyes met he smile at me and look at me like he's glad to see me
He waves at me and I did the same I don't know why me and Michael never been close to each other in our life so why he's acting like a friend to all of a sudden
"Hi"
He said and look at me
"Hello ,are you buying something here too, in the store?"
I asked were here In the store where to buys clothes
He lift he's hand while holding a white paper bag
"I bought one ,wait are you alone, where's Patricia?is she with you?"
He asked
He's still comfortable to call her by her second name
He smile at me once again
"I'm glad it's suit you?"
He said looking at my black wrist watch
"What do you mean?"
I asked
"You know when I was in New Zealand I met Patricia there "
I feel like my blood drain in my body after he said that and I can't believe it
New Zealand? why she's in new Zealand
"Met?you met her there?"
Even I feel like my whole body we're going to collapse any minute I still asked him
Patricia she said she has another business trip ,is this it ?
"Yeah but actually we met at the airport first but in new Zealand is a second time , while we're there we talk"
He explain not to offend me or something he's talking like he just wanted me to know what really happened
"J-just the two of you?"
I asked to make sure
"No, we met our colleges in there to so not just the two of us while we're in new Zealand Patricia keep talking about you and--"
He stop and look at me like he's worried that he might say something that I don't like
"And what c-can you tell me?"
I'm curious, I wanted to know even the truth hurts me , I need to know I wanted too
Because if I asked Patricia I know she will not tell me the truth
"We talk about our past relationship , she just wanted a closure nothing happened believe me "
He said
Closure? She fly to new Zealand because she just wanted a closure?
I can't believe it
She didn't answer my calls and text messages because she just wanted a closure
She declined and lie to me because she just wanted a closure from he's ex
"Babe ,I saw a beautiful cardigan I think it will--
Patricia stop on her track after she saw who's I'm with
"I--I met him here accidentally"
Why do I need to explain myself it's like I'm the who caught red handed here
"Patricia, it's nice to see you again "
Michael greet my wife
"Excuse us Michael,freen--
She was about to touch my hand but I pulled myself away from her
I look at her
I'm in pain right now
She lied to me
I trust her because she said trust her
"Is there something wrong guys?"
Michael ask but I just look at him and give him a fake smile
"No w-were fine ah excuse,you and my wife I think you need to talk guys I-I'll just go to the bathroom "
Patricia grabbed my hand to stop me from leaving but I just look at her and didn't even talk
"Freen "
I just smile I don't want them to see cry in front of them
I pulled my hand away from her
"Patricia"
Michael called my wife name and after that I leave the place
Because I can't handle the heavy pain inside my heart because I feel like going to breakdown
I can't breathe,it's suffocating me
I need to Breathe
"Let's go home"
Someone grab my hand
"Patricia please I want to be alone if you want to go home ,go "
I said but she didn't listen she dragged me somewhere
"Patricia stop"
I used my all strength to get away from her grasp
"Can't you see?! I wanted to be alone please! just let me breath!"
I shouted she's just in front of me standing and look at me
I know what I did is out of line but seeing her standing in front of me is suffocating
"Please "
I plead
"No "
She shake her head
"I'll go home after I just need time to think, Patricia you lied to me I asked you so many times were did you go but you didn't say anything"
I said
"I don't want to tell you because I know you will become like this "
She said now she's crying ,seeing her like this crying is my weakness I wanted to hug her and tell that I'm sorry that I didn't mean to shouted at her but knowing the truth that she lied to me I can't now ,I can't even move my body or have a strength to comfort her
"So is this my fault is that what you trying to say ?"
I asked her she shake her head no and try to came forward to me but I walk back because I don't really want her to get closer to me right now
"Come on freen I didn't do anything I just wanted to end what between us me and Michael, because after what happened I didn't give him a proper words or talk I just disappear in hes life ,I just want to--
But I stop her because I don't want to hear anything from her anymore
"Enough p-please "
I plead her ,I had enough I just need time we need time to figure out what's happening right now
"Please freen I didn't mean to lie I was trying to find a timing to tell you but I didn't know Michael would tell you , please don't leave me "
I looked at her and can't believe that after what she did she still asking me not leaving her
"Patricia are you even hearing yourself?"
I asked and still can't believe it
She subbing and crying in front of me I wanted to cry to but nothings comes out
Because my heart is crying inside and it's killing me
We're toxic
We're both toxic to each other if we keep being like this I'm afraid one of us need to let go or leave before both of us end up do something that we don't want to do
"Please freen I didn't mean that to happened I didn't mean to hurt you "
She said her both hands were shaking,she's scared
Me too ,I'm scared and afraid but she was the one who always do something to end up us like this
She always push me to the end
"Patricia I think w-we both need space right now--
She run to me and hug me tight I can't bring myself to hug her back
"No I don't want to freen please "
I don't know how many time she plead but all I could think right now is to get away
Away from the pain because right now I don't know what to do anymore me
The situation were in right now makes me want to run away
Away from everything away from her
"Don't make it hard for the two of us Patricia please"
I plead to and try to get away from her grasp but she keep on she don't want to let go of me
Why do I always ends up being in pain with the person that I cherish the most
All I did is to love her and all I could get is pain from her
Why is so hard to love
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