Another High School Cliche

chapter 11 (pov:Reyansh)

Big day today for both Ved and me and I am too distracted.
I can't stop thinking about her
I can't get her off my mind
I saw her early in the morning but she said nothing to me

Ughhh it's even more distracting
I know it's my anxiety kicking in but I can't afford it right now so many people are rooting for me and so many are dependent on me

But I can't get this tiny little girl out of my mind
I expected nothing from her but I just want to know what she feels
I am ready to take rejection too at this point of time I just want to talk to her.

Ved saw me getting stressed and tried to comfort me but it was of no use.
Just 20 mins for the match to start and I am here thinking about her.

“Chill Reyansh if I call her now would it be okay,” he asks

I just begged him to let me meet her I just wanted to talk to her desperately.
I wanted to know her feelings even if she was going to reject me.

“Ok but only if u promise it won't be more distracting for u”
And I just nodded

He went out searching for her but came back alone saying she is nowhere to be found

We contacted Erica and she said she was called by a teacher for some work.

I sat down knowing now there is no other way and I had to gear up for the match.

Ved hugged me and wished me luck and we proceeded

20 mins to the match and our school scored nothing while ved already scored a goal
A very bad day to be distracted.

I was just too much out of my mind and this turned into anger somehow
I saw her making her way to her friends in the audience.

Half time ….

I realized that now there is nothing I can do to win this match
It's all over

Shaan came to me with a bottle of water ….. He was saying something but I could hear nothing I was just looking at her while taking a sip.

I just have to see her and everything else epulf blur out.

At that moment I totally lost it
I went to her pulled her to a corner and shouted
“Can u please give a freaking answer???”
I hated myself as I heard myself shouting at her but that moment made me rogue somehow
I look down at her standing still all confused and scared
Which made me lower my pitch

“Please Ruhi can u please tell me something I can't afford to lose….. I don't mind if the feelings don't reciprocate but please before I go all crazy and lose my mind please give me an answer,” I begged while taking a step towards her.

Her eyes were full by now which broke my heart so I stepped back knowing that I had lost it all and left her there knowing she won't be able to answer.
I have now learned her to a point that I know she could give me no answer
so it was better to leave.
We lost the match that day.
I couldn't stop blaming myself for that
I ruined two things: the match and my relation with Ruhi
I don't know if I can ever forgive myself