Not so cold

Chapter 23

Small Talk

The next day at breakfast everything returns to normal.  No look. Back to using the last name.
But I have to admit that I saw Ms Venable glancing at me once or twice , but not long enough for the others to see it.
I hope and look forward to the next special moment with her. The soft side that Ms Venable showed me last night was amazing.

It is for this reason that in the evening after dinner I stayed.

Once alone I ask her " care to join me in the library Ms venable ? if you have some time of course "

She just answers "I don't know " but not in a cold away

But yes she joined me and we sat in our respective usual places.

After a while, after trying to concentrate on the book, I give in to temptation and ask her. " What did you do before the apocalypse Ms Venable ?"

She looks at me and thinks for a few seconds trying to decide whether or not she should answer me finally she says "I was working for a robotic company "

"Oh that's nice, did you like it ? what did you do there ? "

" I didn't like but I didn't dislike it either. I worked a lot. And I was HR "

" Oh HR ! explains where this desire to lead comes from. " I said smirking " and what did you do aside from the company ? "

" As I said before I worked a lot. Indeed I dedicated my life to this company so I didn't have any hobby or friends beside it "

And this. This breaks my heart. I wish I could have been her friend in this pre-apocalypse life. I have a hundred questions like, has she been loved by someone? did she have a child ? where did she live? But of course it's too personal and I don't want to take the risk for her to put her walls up again.

" I'm sorry, I would have loved to be your friend " I say honestly

" No you would not " and just with this, she breaks my heart again

" You don't know but I admire people like you that are able to put everything aside to reach their goal "

" And you what did you do before this,Y/N ?"  she really doesn't like to be complimented.

Oh and first name again. I guess that's something she will do when it's just the two of us. I totally like it. It feels more intimate and like something I share with her.

" I worked as a ( your dream job ) and I liked listening to music, taking care of animals, reading a lot as you already know and looking at sunsets and so much more " I said a bit sad since i'm not able to do this anymore.

" And your family and your friends ?" she asks

" I loved my family but in small doses, it was complicated with some of them. And I went out with my friends sometimes and I really liked them but you know I also really enjoy some time by myself "

" I totally get it."

" And you Ms Venable, your family ?"

" I only had my parents but it was also complicated with them "

Did this woman had anyone to love her ? I mean everyone deserves love.

Also, it was hard to imagine her with parents but of course she didn't come out of an egg.

" And what did you enjoy apart from your work ? " I ask, continuing the conversation because I clearly don't want it to end.
I feel comfortable talking with her and I love to know more about her.

" I liked reading, taking a glass of wine in a bath, watching sunsets too and cooking sometime " she answers honestly

" I totally get the mood and I must say I love it "

And with that it felt like we were really getting close. I really enjoyed this conversation and knowing about her was so incredible. For a moment she let her walls down. But of course it couldn't last. Thanks to fucking Ms Mead who came to tell that it was curfew time. Ms Venable stayed in the library reading and wished me a good night with a small smile on her lips. I swear she seemed disappointed that this conversation ended so soon. I am too.

I can't get enough of this woman. I want to know everything about her, I want to be close to her, I want to smell her perfume , I want to feel her close but most of all, I want her to feel loved.

Guess I have a crush ?

I don't know what to think about this chapter