Regrets and Mistakes

Chapter 16

Muna's POV
There was something,something in my throat whatever it was,it was pinching my skin so bad,those emotions I held inside me where going loose,they were railing all over the place,the anger I held inside towards men was getting the better of me,I had to put that man in his place,my body,my lips and my hair belong to me and I have no business sharing my breath with him,he is nothing but a spoiled brat who was born with a silver spoon in his mouth,he would never understand what being me means,but these feelings,I moved my finger between my lips,the thought of his tongue caressing mine was sending all the stupid signals to want him again to my brain,I need to focus,I am here for this job this should be my main concern,my eyes towards the office across the passage,just a glimpse of him is all I require to focus,before I knew it sepos grandmother was waving goodbye as I sighed in relief,my session with the little boy was done,the very demon that taunted me to kiss him drew me to his office,my plan was to insult him and his entire generation that way he won't see the need to tempt me anymore,as I approached the office it became evident he was not in there but why would he leave his office open,I could feel the registry's eyes on my body,gosh she's so nosy,whatever happened to minding your business in this hospital,are there drugs that help people mind their business" I mumbled laughing at my own jokes,ain't I hilarious,who would make drugs for that,they should consider it though I laughed trying to keep it low so people wouldn't think I had gone crazy,I scanned the room before heading to his office chair his jacket was hanging on the chair,I drew closer to it gently fumbled it between my fingers,pulled it closer to my nose,aah! It smelled exactly like him,it was as though he was right there,deep in my feelings my hands extended picturing his waist,dancing on the floor with him" what's love got to do" I sang the classic as I went round and round with his jacket,the smell of him was getting stronger you know fresher,I dropped his jacket on the ground when I saw his tall masculine figure slightly leaned against the door,his feet were crossed,rubbing his temples,his eyes were darker than usual,I couldn't interpret his expression was he mad that I was in his office or that I dropped his jacket on the floor,or how I treated him earlier,holy crap" he blurted,his eyes raking up and down my body,okay now this is not good,my anxiety is killing me,I should run,I should run, I kept repeating those words,he pushed the door behind him slowly before walking towards me,his movements looked rhetorical and his cheeks were flushing,his wrists were fisted,was he going to hit me,the fear in my body instructed me to take mini steps behind until I reached the table,my body was shaking,he was inches away from me,his minty breath filled the room,I gulped anxiously,finding it hard to swallow my saliva " dance? You want to dance with me miss chinjamba " I don't know was it a question or a statement,my eyes blinked like my life depended on it.he placed his warm hand on my bare skin just under my uniform top,the fear disappeared but welcomed the nervousnesses,without warning he pulled me closer to him leaving no space between us,he placed me in a dance position just like I had put his jacket,round and round we went,both quite,eyes locked feelings escalating,minutes later we were both panting after the dance " what do you want,Muna?" He graciously asked,like I know,I wish I knew what I wanted but I don't,why I'm I even in his office,why is this man making me go back on what I promised myself,I have always had my life in order,an education and a better life for my mother and my sister,not doodling with this stupid man who knows how hot he is," will you keep me guessing " he whispered in my ear,I was loosing it again,he was doing it to me again,the same game that makes me lose all my senses," kiss me" I whispered surprising the both of us" with pleasure " he responded,as he placed his lips on mine,I grabbed his neck into both my hands,he pulled out leaving me wanting for more" I don't want to hurt you,I will not do anything with you except work,I will not be your booty call"he darted his eyes from me facing the other side of the office,that did not go as I expected,what was I supposed to do now beg him?,I have no idea what he is talking about i also do not know why I am here asking him to kiss me,who am I?" Please leave,you know where to find me when you have my answer" answer? To what question,would it be foolish if i asked him what the question was,instead of leaving as I was asked I placed my hands round his waist,moved my fingers up and down,his pulse was quickening,"what do you want Hastings " I whispered in his ear,he slowly turned around maintaining eye contact,slowly lifted me and placed me on the table,his hands explored my waist,trying not to touch anything else" you, Muna,all of you"," I'm here" I responded with no regrets or idea of what was going to happen,my mouth slightly opened as he slid his tongue inside mine.