Regrets and Mistakes

Chapter 35

Lies? It was all a lie?His sparkly eyes,his kisses,his hands on my body,his whispers,everything was a lie. I am a rich man's daughter and he was trying to steal it from me,does he have any idea how I have lived my whole life? Trying to belong,trying to feel normal,healing from all that misfortune I really thought this was a new path,a new life,all the pieces began to fit in,I never visited his house,his busy phone calls,him disappearing on me like that,I could not get everything together but it did make sense,he tricked me and I fell for it,my world was spinning,I felt strength leave my body,my spirit was broken I have never felt this weak, mweemba was bleeding to death,the ambulance was on its way,the next thing I remember I opened my eyes in a hospital bed,my head was pounding,the terrible memories I had thought of just being a nightmare actually turned out to be true,Hastings was a murderer,mr mweemba was my father and I,..what I'm I doing in a hospital bed,I looked around for a clue while in bed something that could make me understand why I was here,"hello there,how are you feeling " the Doctor greeted me with a smile on his face carrying a file that he could not stop reading," what I'm I doing here doctor" I politely asked him,pouring myself a glass of water to soothe the headache.he handed me the file,the written notes almost took my life,and yes not in a good way,I was 2 weeks pregnant,my heart rate increased,I felt so scared I am responsible for a whole brand new person,history is about to repeat to itself,what is happening," congratulations " he smiled and excused himself,samba came in with a sorry face,she pulled me in for a hug,I felt comforted by her" your father is alive,your blood and his matched,you saved him Muna" she whispered,I had no idea we were in here together" I know the other news is horrible especially at this point but it's going to be okay I promise you" she assured me like she had read my mind. " I want to see him" I said surprising her,she held my hand and led me to his room,he got nervous trying to push himself up" please remain calm,can we talk" i asked him with my eyes tearing up,he gestured me to go closer to him and sit beside his bed,I took a seat on the edge of the bed,not knowing where to start from,I had so many questions,I really did not care about his money but his presence was my main concern," first..I want you to know I love you,I have loved you from the day I discovered you existed,I swear to you finding you is all I have been doing since then" his statement answered my biggest question it must have been hard for him to even accept having a child he never knew really existed," I am sorry I judged you all my life" I buried my face in my palms,I really felt bad for categorizing him in the ran away baby daddies,although I never bothered to ask mom who my father was sometimes I could not help but wonder " I really hope you give our relationship a chance" our relationship?so he does want to get to know me,how comforting is that,but what led my mom to hide such information from him" what happened between you and my mom " I asked,rubbing my thigh,his expression told me it's a rather an uncomfortable topic but I deserved to know the truth," I loved thandiwe so much,but my parents were obsessed with marrying into a wealthy family or someone with a traceable background,I was willing to let it go for her,the night me and her made love,she overheard me speaking to sibeso about eloping " his face paled up after speaking of sibeso,he really loved his friend,I focused my eyes on him to show him I was paying attention,"she left without a word,in my head she had betrayed me or found someone better,sibeso convinced me to forget about her and move on,it took me five solid years to fall in love again " with chuma I imagine,the love between them was visible," but you my dear are my main reason to live" he rubbed my shoulder,never in my life had I felt so valued by someone,I was someone's reason to live,my stomach fluttered,the thoughts of Hastings and his betrayal came back haunting me,he placed his hand on my belly surprising the both of us" this little human here will have the world and not lack a thing" he assured me,I did not want him to feel I only wanted his money my pride was pushing me to refuse him from spending any money on me but my vulnerability knew I needed him in my life and my child's life,"thank you so much sir" I thanked him before exiting his room,he waved at me and smiled,Jorge scanned my body as I walked passed him,I was ashamed of myself for the poor decision I made with Hastings,he and my sister unmasked him in front of everyone,that whole thing was so embarrassing for me,my face went blackout his arm wrapped around my stomach,his eyes and mine met,goosebumps formed on my skin increasing the embarrassment on my face,he held my hand " careful,careful " he whispered while taking me to the room,he carried me in his hands and placed on the bed,my arms were wrapped around his neck,he placed me on the bed slowly.