Regrets and Mistakes

Chapter 1

Muna's POV

The morning sun rays beam through my bedroom window,I squint my eyes trying to adapt to the sunlight in my puffy eyes,it appears we are in the long days short nights,how did I just close my eyes for a second and it is already Morning. I pull my bathing rob towards my bed before I jump out of bed like a squirrel,realization hits me making my head spin,am I insane? Today is the day you stupid cow, get it together,I have been waiting for this day since the day my mother suffered a stroke,I rush to my closet that is not so fancy but at least descent and presentable ,with a life like mine,who has time for fashion?I pull out my grey flared skirt and a floral top complimented with pumps,I ran to the bathroom and take a quick bath,my mini sessions of sadness hover but I push them away focusing on the blessed day ahead. I got a job I squirm in excitement,I can not wait to give my mother a comfortable life and a proper descent education for my sister. I have no intentions of making her go through what I went through to get us here,although my sister does not understand our situation I am glad she is a free spirited person who lives each day as it comes,I never want her to worry about anything,I have raised her like a daughter but we are so different,she is a smiley face free soul who is obsessed with fashion and the world of glamour,sometimes I worry her love for luxury might lead her to the wrong things,why I'm I such a party pooper,I should be excited,right? Time moves by quickly I have been deep in my thoughts I did not realize I was done getting ready,I tiptoed my way outside to avoid waking up my mother and sister who were sleeping peacefully in the other bedroom. As I approached the building as described by the letter of appointment I was enchanted by the beauty of the hospital,the beautiful cars parked outside were luxurious and very clean,I looked around admiring the art around the corridor leading To the Human Resources office,at the registry was a pretty,light skinned young woman,should be 22 or 23 she waved at me with excitement,unfortunately I did not wave back I am definitely not here to make friends. I walked with my head high and chest out,carrying all the confidence I could to the office. My heart skipped a bit when I saw a woman in the office,my letter was signed by a man at least that's what the name implied,there is just something about women in power most of them are rude for not reason at all,I honestly don't have the patience to deal with such,my eyes went down to her shoes,they seemed expensive she had a pair of red heels,a black dress and a black wig,I looked at her face she seemed to be in her 50's her warm smile penetrated through my rock hard heart I had no choice but to return the smile" miss chinjamba" she called out placing her hands in front for me to sit," good morning " I responded pretending not to be surprised to find her in the office" I am Mrs Mweemba" she told me answering my thoughts I now understand,she must be the wife to the human resource anyway it is non of my business, "I placed my file on her table,watched as she pulled out a pair of glasses, "old age" she chuckled,I watched as she read through the file while sipping on some coffee,this place really is fancy,whoever owns this place must be very wealthy, speaking of wealth I remembered my young sister who is obsessed with luxury,she would freak to look at this place. My mind was going places imagining myself opening up a physiotherapy hospital some day,I was inspired by mothers condition when I went to university her stroke made me gain interest in mobilization of tissues. I was too distracted by my thoughts to realize she had finished signing the paperwork and was staring at me."day dreaming" she asked me mockingly like she knew what I was thinking, my eyes felt heavy from the embarrassment " no not really,I am sorry " the petite woman I saw at the registry was standing behind me,the woman pointed at her gesturing me to leave with her I guess she was going to show me to her office." Where is he" I heard her yell, from her office after I thanked her and left with the talkative woman who was already getting on my nerves, why does she talk so fast,she doesn't even know me,I was too focused to actually hear what she was saying that I didn't realize she was gone,I was stuck in the middle of the corridor,my nervous body dragged me to the registry,she rolled her eyes at me upon seeing me" I am sorry I..." she raised her hands to stop me from talking,why is she so dramatic " maybe next time focus on what a person is telling you especially if you're new" deep down I felt like throwing my bag at her but instead I just shamefully nodded my head in agreement " I was saying your uniform is already in your department so you need to change as soon as you get there" wow she was actually telling me something sensible "I am really sorry" I said genuinely after I realized I had misjudged her," it's okay,miss? She paused asking for my name" Muna, you can call me Muna" i said,extending my hand to shake her small hands,she shook mine and smiled at me.