Town of Bliss

Chapter 1

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CLAUDIA LONGO
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I sigh as I wake up to my annoying alarm, groaning and stretching out my body. Today was the day I was going to be moving to the small town I've been transferred to teach at. I'm extremely nervous about this because it takes a while for me to get use to new surroundings, mainly because of my social anxiety. I've been too comfortable being here that moving and teaching some where else already has me on edge.

I decide to stop thinking about it and just focus on getting ready.

I walk into my bathroom, hating the way my head ached from the box braids I had done yesterday. Why the fuck did she grip my hair so darn tight!? I really don't get it. I was going to speak up but I wasn't confident enough in my voice to do so.  It literally feels like my scalp is on fire and it's taking everything in me not to grab a pair of scissors and just cut the braids down.

Anyways I decide to do my morning routine which consists of me just brushing my teeth and washing my face. It's so basic but I don't care. My skin isn't the best, I have hyperpigmentation around the lower half of my face and neck area, also other parts of my body but I'm not gonna mention.

I've tried getting ride of it but honestly just gave up. It's literally just discoloration...what am I stressing over? It's not like it's a disease. So many people have discoloration and I'm sure most of them are also comfortable with it so why shouldn't I be too?

After finishing my morning routine I took a shower, my belly already turning at the thought of starting over again in a new area I have absolutely no knowledge on.

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Since my braids were still fresh it hurt so bad. I couldn't really do a style with it because just moving my head around was painful enough so the thought of even touching my braids were a big no no for me.

I decide to just leave the ginger colored braids down instead of styling it. For my clothes, i just wore an oversized green plain t-shirt, black cargo pants and black crocs . Since I'm traveling I don't need to impress anyone. In fact I hate when I get attention from strangers because I just end up being awkward about it and it's something I never wanna experienced ever.

I've been single my entire life. I'm the kind of person that will rather fantasize about relationships than get into one. I crave to be wanted by someone but then I ask myself what I would do when that opportunity comes. Will I really be ready? Won't I run away?. I'm not experienced in anything, for fuck sake I'm a virgin who can't even touch herself.  Not that there's something wrong with my vigina , it's just im too nervous to do anything with my body. While everyone was/is exploring and figuring their pussy out I'm over here telling myself it's okay I have time, take it slow.

I do know how to masturbate. All I do is lay back, cross my legs and press my thighs against each other...does the job for me everytime but I know I can feel even better. I know touching my self will feel even more better and of course even having a sex toy or someone's dick but I'm not ready to take that step..I need time.

I do have time and I CAN take it slow but damm I'm 24 years old!! I need to over come this fear of touching myself and also being an introvert. I'm moving to a new town, This could be a start. No one will know me so I should just use this opportunity to explore. Change personalities maybe? I mean people do that in shows I've watch so maybe I can do that too who knows. I've held myself down for far too long. I'm not getting any younger I need to live to my fullest potential.