conscious love- the sequel to automatic love- an obx jiara love story

chapter 7.

"i've been here for 4 days but it feels like years" kie says as she sits down at a table in the food area.

"try actually being here for years" emily says, sitting opposite her.

"i'm just praying i find a way out soon, like my dad having a change of heart, or my dad's girlfriend finding a way to get me out or something" kie says.

emily nods.

"this place is like prison and school joined together. the rooms are like cells, especially with the little sliding thing in the door for food. like what are we? criminals?" kie says, looking around.

"i know. miss linda acts like we're robots or something" emily whispers.

"i know! like the standing outside every morning! we actually look like robots" kie whispers.

emily chuckles as she stabs her plastic fork through a piece of chicken.

"and the food? it's literally worse than school" kie says.

they only give the campers paper plates and plastic cutlery at blue ridge, incase any campers try to use them to harm themselves, or others. they only let them eat meat and vegetables, and they only drink water. no sugar.

"tell me about it" emily says.

"i feel so bad for you, i don't know how you've lasted here for so long" kie says.

emily shrugs her shoulders. "didn't have a choice"

"if i was still with jj, i'd probably be out by now. him and the other pogues would've made a plan to bust me out" kie says.

"pogues?" emily says.

"oh, it's an outer banks thing. kooks are rich second homers, kinda like you. pogues, are working class who don't have a pot to piss in" kie says.

"so kooks are rich and pogues are broke?" emily says.

"basically" kie says.
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"y'all, she's been there for 4 days now and we're still no closer" jj says.

"actually, we are. charlie is making progress with the hacking, and we've made progress with backup plans and escape routes" pope says.

"guys, what happens if we can't get her out? what then?" sarah says, biting her nails.

"then... we try again" jj says.

"if we try to break kie out once and it doesn't work, they'll move her. they'll make everything more secure... it'll be practically impossible to break her out if we fail this time" john b says.

"so we can't fail. no mess ups..." jj nods. "okay, how hard can that be?"

sarah raises her eyebrows and folds her arms. "with us? very" she says.

"oh god. show me the back ups again" jj says.
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lights out at blue ridge came around fast. kie has been here for barely no time, but she's already bored and sick of the same routine everyday. up bright and early, working straight away, eat some disgusting food, activities, sleep. it's the same shit everyday and it's beginning to drain kie.

she goes into the bathroom and switches the shower on. she drops her clothes and slowly steps into the shower. the warm water immediately hits her skin, already calming her nerves. her head is spinning from the past few days, and everything that's happened. she still feels empty without jj and her friends. she just doesn't know how to fill that emptiness. she wants to hate him for breaking her heart but she loves him so much that she can't. she physically can't. letting go sounds so easy. but it's actually one of the hardest things someone could do. having someone you can't live without leave, and not being able to do anything about it, makes you want to try more. try to get them to stay more. but you'll eventually realise it's a losing battle. it doesn't change how you feel about them... but you soon realise that it's not worth the fight anymore. letting go takes a strong amount of courage and independence. kie doesn't have either of those yet.

another person she's missing deeply is her best friend. not many people realise this, but friendship breakups are so much worse than love breakups. not that her and sarah's friendship is over, but they've definitely drifted over the past few weeks. with lovers, it's more expected that they'll breakup. not many couples last forever. but friendships, they last a long time. because friends love each other in a different way. they love each other stronger than a lover ever could, and that's probably what hurts the most. you don't expect to lose them. they've been there for so long that they become your normal. part of your everyday life. and eventually you can't imagine your life without them. until one day you have to live it. kie watched sarah, jj, pope, john b and charlie turn into the people who knew everything, begin to have no idea what was happening in her life. her world has been so dull since she last saw them. it's like they took the sun with them when they left. and she has nobody but herself to blame.

she's currently grieving the loss of people who are still alive.

once she feels a little more relaxed, she turns the shower off and grabs the towel. as soon as the water stops dropping she's dragged back to the real world. she gets dried, puts her pyjamas on, ties her hair back, and eventually falls asleep.
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the silent room is full of pants as the brunette sits up in her bed. her heart pounding, her chest thumping up and down. she looks around and sees nothing but darkness. then she slowly starts to remember where she is. she's not necessarily in the place she wants to be, but she's safe.

the dreams have been happening for the last 3 days. they're usually her parents. her mom, and her dad. her dad turning on her, her mom being alive... it's really messing with her head. she's starting to get her real thoughts confused with her dreams and it's stressing her out.

what the fuck is happening to her?
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i can't believe i've gotten to 7 chapters and i still haven't gotten them back together. just wait though! not long now!

i know i said she might be out in this chapter but i changed my mind. soon!

see you soon- molly