life

danger

BIG TW: R@PE⚠️

George POV

I've been getting flashbacks from that night.. those last few days have been horror. The picture were constantly in my head and it hurts.

I can't sleep, I couldn't sleep, I wanna do something. I've to clear my mind, to think about something else than that.

I pull my phone out and text into a group

you guys wanna party?

It took them a bit to answer but they luckily answered with a yes and a meeting spot. I get out of my bed and quickly dress myself up a little.

I wanted to go trough the front door but now I'm too scared my parents will hear, so I'll just claim out of the window.

I arrived at the meeting spot, which is in front of a club, after walking for a while. Everyone was waiting just for me, literally everyone.

"When was the last time all of you agreed to go out?" I laugh after throwing my cigarette away "that's what I've been saying." David laughs.

"I got all the drugs in my underwear so you guys won't have to worry about anything." Alicia says.

It was a good idea of hers cause our bags, more like the girls bags, got checked. Luckily they couldn't find anything cause I was scared the others had something too.

We went inside and got ourselves a spot where we could sit while another friend got our drinks from the bar.

"You stared to go to school more, am I right?" Alicia asks with a smile "yeah, I actually did start." I smile.

"why is this then?" she tilts her head "I've a friend there and actually enjoy being around him." I laugh a little.

"ah.. that's nice." she smiles "will you introduce him to us?" another question comes from her "no, I won't." I take a sip.

"He's not like us. Clay is his name and he hates cigarettes and drugs, he's also not really into alcohol either." I tell her "you found a normal friend huh?"

"I got a few 'normal' friends. Like Nick, you know him." I say "right, I forgot about him." she giggles as she hands me lsd over.

"where did you get that from?" I ask as I feel a smile on my face "it's a secret." she winks as she starts to give them to the others.

The whole group gets up and starts to dance after taking them. The function isn't there yet but why not start to get the feeling?

I dance, I don't know how, but I do.
While all of us laugh with each other and drink another drinks I feel myself smiling.

It's nice being like this, with my friends.
They can be hard but I know that I'm not alone when I'm with them.

They feel what I feel, the same typ of pain when it comes to addiction. It hurts every time I go hours without a drug.

I can't life without them, they're my life.

If I could choose between this life and a normal life.. it would be a hard choice and I wouldn't know what to choose.

With the drugs I can forget about all my problems, but without them I wouldn't have some problems.

My heart starts to raise and I very slowly feel how the lsd works. I walk away from my group and make myself to the toilet.

I walk in and do the thing I had to do, but when I walked out I felt a grip.

It's David.

"why did you grab me like that?" I laugh "since when are you that close with clay?" he suddenly asks "huh? I don't know..why?" I ask.

"why is he at your place at night? why are you guys so close?" he gets closer "what are you- stop coming this close!"

"why on earth are you so close with him!" David yells "that's none of your business! Get off of me!" I shout as I try to move away.

"you fucking bitch-" he grabs me somewhere else "stop!" I shout before he pushes me against the wall.

"I've been watching the two of you! Always together, always in a good mood.. I thought I was the one you liked!" He yells.

"You're crazy! Let go of me!" I shout again.

"you know you're only mine!" he suddenly starts to take his pants off "wha- stop!" I yell at him as I try to kick around me.

"I'll teach you a lesson." he whispers.
"I'm seriously, stop!" I shout again.

"shut the fuck up-" he closes my mouth.
"I know you want this too, I know how much you like it."

I feel how my heart raises, my cheeks get wet and my body starts to trembling.
When he pulls down my pants, I speak.

"I won't forgive you a second time." I tell him but that didn't effect him.. I close my eyes tightly cause I gave up trying.

I hear a loud smack and I feel how his hands let go of my body. I turn around to see, my heart doesn't move, Clay.

David lays on the ground while Clay's holding his fist. "You want another one?" Clay asks but doesn't give David a chance to answer.. he kicks him in the face.

David holds his nose as he starts to cry and before clay could do something else, Davids brain goes out.

He looks at me.
I couldn't move, I wanted to but my body wouldn't listen.

Clay pulls up my clothes before he stares into my eyes. "Can I hug you?" he asks which surprised me but I gave him a small nod.

Without hesitating he pulls me around his arms, holding the back of my head.

A safety feeling grabs my whole body out of nowhere.

"I'm sorry for you." he whispers without letting go of me. I feel a warmth coming inside of me.. I didn't notice that I hugged him back until now.

Now where the lsd starts to work. Now where my view gets coloured. Now where my blood runs fast.

Now when I felt safe.

Of the hug? I couldn't let go, I didn't want to. Even with the drug and alcohol in me, I just couldn't let go of clay.

And he didn't pull back either.

He stayed like this, without moving or talking.
He only spoke a few times saying something like..

"I got you."
"It's okay."
"I'm so sorry."
"I'm here."

even though I was mean to him.. he cares.