life

voices

It was 7am when my alarm went on. I grab my phone and see that George has texted me at 5am.

George: I won't come to school.
You don't have to worry about anything, I'm okay.

I immediately get worried. I know he just told me I shouldn't, but who knows what happened. I stand up and start to get ready for school.

I don't know if I should head to school or straight to George's place.

'Why? Where are you and what happened?'

I texted him.

Do I even want to go to school? Can I even concentrate without him by my side?
Oh my god- what If David did something again!

There are too many things in my head..

"David did something." The voice in my head says "maybe.." I mumble "not maybe, he did. There isn't another reason why George isn't in school."

"What if he's just sick?" I ask "He was just fine two days ago." it says "that doesn't mean he can't get sick in two days-"

"He would tell you if he was sick. We both know that David did something." It laughs "George knows what you would do, so he won't tell you."

"Stop with this nonsense!" I say "I'm just helping you, Clay." It calmly says "without me, you would be nothing."

"I said shut up." I whisper "The only way you could help George is to kill David."
"I told you to shut up!" I shout and catch how I talked to myself again.

I sigh before walking into school.

"You know they all saw the video." everyone is staring at me "what video?" I confusedly look from side to side.

"The one you got arrested for beating someone up." It laughs "someone postet it!?" I scream-whisper.

"Don't you see them laughing?" The voice laughs "They're laughing at you, you're embarrassing. If I were you I would've stayed home." The laughing gets louder.

"Fuck off.." I whisper but the voices multiple. Everyone is laughing at me.
Why would they laugh?

"Stop messing with me-" I whisper "I told you." Is the last thing it said before completely disappearing.

My breathing gets better and I walk into the toilet. "Fuck-" I whisper to myself as I breath in and out.

I stayed there for a few other minutes, trying to get my breathing under control.
After walking out I straightly ran into someone.

"Fuck- don't you have eyes!" I say to someone "sorry-" I look down to a short girl "damn- you're short."

"Thanks?" She confusedly smiles "I'm Jenny." she shakes my hand "clay?" I force a smile.

"See you around, I have class now!" she waves while running away.

George: I'm home. I just don't want to come today.

George texted.
"hm.." escapes my mouth.

3:56pm
After school ended I made my way straight to George's house.

I ring and wait for someone to open the door, but none did. The door is slightly opened so I enter the house.

"Hello?" I say but no respond. I look around and realise that none is home.

I walk to George's room and knock on the door
"George?" I say as I open the door.
My eyes wide and I feel a panic inside of me.

He's completely wet and fully covered with vomit. I suddenly get all warm while just staring at him.

"I told you something happened." the voice appears. I slowly walk over to him before I carefully lift him up.

He overdosed.. I look at the package with painkillers, it's empty. My heart raises and my panic gets more and more as I take my phone out.

While I talk to the lady on the phone the voice gets louder and more.

"This is your fault, just letting you know."
"Why would you go to school instead of looking for your loved one?"
"If he dies it's your fault."
"You're no better than david."
"How could you let George overdose?"
"You knew something was wrong!"
"You let this happen!"
"Nothing would've happened if you skipped a school day!"
"Are you sure you love him?"
"What if he dies now?"

"Shut the fuck up!" I shout as I open my eyes and find myself in the hospital chair.
Everyone weirdly looks at me "sorry." I whisper.

"You just embarrassed yourself."
"please, just fuck off." I hide my face the more I feel sadness.

"There has to be someone who tells you all those things."
"Imagine you would've gone to him sooner."
"Thats what happens if you don't listen to me."

I feel tears in my eyes the more it talks, the more it gives me the fault.

"How was I supposed to know this happened?" I whisper "Quit this. We both know you knew, you just didn't want to do anything."

"I didn't want this to-"
"Happen? Well it did. Because of you, none else-"
"Just leave!" I scream-whisper.

"I'll stay by your side until you die."

"You can go into his room, he's up." a nurse tells me. I immediately stand up and go inside his room where I find him with hands on his face.

"George-" I say as I hug him but I only hear sniffs coming from him "don't cry, you're okay." I whisper.

He shakes his head.
"It happened again-" his breathing is hard "I didn't want to overdose!"

"It's okay- hey, George!" I try to move his hands away but he won't let me "look at me George."

He hesitates but looks with glassy eyes at me.
"I'm here." I say "it was an accident, it's okay."
But he shakes his head.

"It's not- my parents will be worried again!" he wipes his tears but still won't stop crying "I've overdosed too many times! It's a wonder I'm still alive."

"I can talk to a nurse- so they don't call your parents." I suggest "try it, please!" he grabs my arm.

"Why would I not call his parents?" The nurse rudely asks "Cause they're stressed and everything! I'll tell them another day." I say.

She chews her gum while staring at me.
"No." She looks down at the computer "Come on! You want money?"

She looks up to me.
"How old are you sweetheart?" she asks "19, why?"

She writes something down and hands it over to me. "If you come I won't call, but If you're even a minute late or don't come." she gives me the look.

I nod before I walk back.

Meet me at ***street at 12am.
Room 104!
xoxo

The letter says.