life

what was that

George POV

I've been trying to get near to clay for ages and every time he's about to kiss me- something happens!

Is it really that hard to get a kiss?!

Yes, I feel something for that annoying creature. I don't even know how I did, but I did.

Clay is a sweet guy, he cares about others and is always happy.. but lately I've notice how he zones out.

He doesn't talk or laugh, he just sits there and stares at one spot, sometimes he even says random things out of nowhere.

Its like he's talking to someone who's not even there.

"You're smoking again?" I hear clays voice next to me which made me throw my cigarette away.

"I had to cool down." I mumble "why? whats stressing you?" he lifts my chin, making me look at him.

There are many things which bother me. Like the way clay is lately, he doesn't talk to me. But another scary thing is.. that he could easily replace me.

with someone healthy and good looking.

"hm?" he sweetly tilts his head "you." I speak "I'm bothering you?" Clay stares into my eyes "you're acting differently."

"I am?"
"yes you are."

"Care to tell me whats been going on?" I cross my arms "aww, are you worried?" he starts to tease me, "yes I am.", it doesn't work.

His gaze changes.

"You don't have to be, George." he calmly speaks "Of course I have!" I let my arms fall down "every time we are together, even with other people, its like you're talking to someone who's not even there!"

His eyes wide.

"You have notice that?" he shockingly asks "yeah.. of course I have." I mumble, being a little confused why he's so shocked about that.

"You always want me to talk when I feel down or when something's wrong, right?" I start "right.."

"I want the same from you." I say looking him deep in the eyes "I want to kiss you." he suddenly says.

"Do it then."

He doesn't let me repeat myself. He pulls my body closer to his, lays his hand on my cheek before saying something.

"Lets hope none breaks it this time.." clay mumbles and I just slammed my lips against his.

Or should I say I wished?

"George!"
Clay quickly moves away and I feel anger, pure anger in me. "Have you guys been smoking?" Nick says "I swear- you guys are making me go crazy!" I yell.

11pm

My friend group, including Clay, Nick and Karl, decided to go to a new club tonight. I said that I wouldn't take any drugs but- I'm George?

"Remember! no drugs." Clay whispers in my ear "yep!" I smile at him. Of course I knew that I wouldn't listen to that, but why shouldn't I lie?

We take the drinks and sit down, clay besides me of course, the drugs get taken out which made me stare at them.

"How cool!" Clays arm goes around me before he pushes my head completely away from the drugs "what?" I ask as I put my hand out.

Someone hands me the drug over and I hide it in my hands. "You're stupid." I laugh at Clay, not even knowing what he said.

"Clay!" a girl suddenly calls him "Jenny, hey!" Clay leaves me for the girl. An anger starts to fill up but it disappeared when I notice that I can quickly take the drug now.

I put it down on the table, roll a letter which I had in my pants, put it to my nose and pull the cocaine.

I sniff a few more times before leaning back again. After a few minutes I feel my heart raising and how I get excited.

I star to vibe with the music along before getting completely up. "Go George! Go George!" my friends start to cheer as I dance.

The next thing I saw is everyone around me, dancing together. I laugh as I spin around without taking care of where I'm going.

Time went by fast cause the next thing I saw was clay sitting there and watching me. The way his eyes stare into mine, the way he looks and drinks.

I feel a warmth inside of me, I look around me before I walk over to Clay. I feel myself getting excited right after smelling him.

I lay my hand on his thigh as I get closer to him. My hands slowly move up to his vip area before I slightly squeeze.

He grabs my wrist and looks at me.
"What are you doing?" he gets closer and I feel a need, the need of him.

"I need you.." I whisper in his ear as I touch him "stop it- you're going to make me go crazy." he moans in my ear.

"This is the second time.. don't you think its my turn to go crazy?" I lick his ear "if you were sober I would do something." he whispers.

"I am." I smirk "you smell like-" I cut him off "alcohol? I only drank half of my drink." I look at it.

"I'm sober." I kiss his neck "you kiss my neck but not my lips?" Clay smirks as he pulls me on top of him.

Without hesitating I lay my lips on his. I slide my tongue in and touch his hair while playing in his mouth.

I bite his under lip before I was about to kiss him again, but he stops me.

"You're making out with George?" Karl asks, clay laughs, "you know he's on drugs?" he suddenly says.

"huh-" clay makes "what are you saying?" I laugh as I move against clays excitement "ugh- George stop for a second."

"He's on cocaine." Karl says "ask the others." he adds which made him almost throw me away from his lap and walk over to them.

"Really?" I feel anger "you fucking bitch!" I shout. Karl just ignores me and walks to nick
"Yeah, go to mama!" I shout after him.

"You said you wouldn't take drugs!" Clay shouts after he pulled me outside "you said you wouldn't!"

"Stop screaming!" I yell "I won't because I said you can't take drugs but you still did!" he yells really loud.

"who are you to tell me that!" I shout back "you aren't my father so piss off!"
"I'm your friend, the one who actually cares about you!" he shouts.

"Fuck off!" I slap him and push him really hard away, so hard that he hit his head on the corner of a building.

Fuck!
I did not just do that-