Soulmates / HEEJAKE

How it All Started

Heeseung

All the members decided today, to be 'the pool day', we planned this last night, since our break is coming to an end we all wanted to enjoy ourselves as much as we can

The hotel staff provided us with several floaties and water guns to play with. They even warmed the water for us to enjoy pool time even in winters.

All of them look so excited wearing shorts and t shirts, we can't take our t shirts off even when we are going to the pool, we need to be cautious all the time of the saesangs.

Niki and Jake are ready for a war with their water guns while Sunoo has already claimed a float tube, whereas me, Jungwon and Jay are just admiring Sunghoon swimming skills as he twirls in water.

After a series of activities and two rounds of water-gun and water-balloon fight I came to the side for some rest while the other kids are still playing, soon Jay also joined me. We watched the members giggling and laughing while chasing in the water, they are playing swimming tag.

"Jake hyung.....Jungwon hyung" Niki pointed towards Jungwon, indicating Jake to attack the same.

Jungwon tried to run but Niki blocked his way while Jake jumped on him from behind, everyone laughed, ah this evil duo.

Looking at him play with other members brings me so much happiness. Unknowingly he keeps reminding me why I fell so hard for him and why is it only him and no one else.

Thinking about it now, ever since I first met him I was hooked with his charisma. It was nice to meet the handsome Australian trainee everyone talked about.

We used to laugh so hard every time someone forced him to do aegyo, he is naturally cute but acting cute was not something he was very good at.

I remember stressing so much during I land but every time those memories comes to me, I see Jake there for me. He was not that talkative back then but his presence itself was enough to console me.

He is the only one who understands the unspoken words of mine, he always acknowledged my worries. I still remember the interview where he mentioned that he was grateful just because I shared my thoughts with him.

I don't know what made me fall for him, whether it was the pureness of his soul or his looks or the way he treated me but I know one thing for sure that I don't regret it.

During the tour his unreal looks on stage made me realize how other people feels when they see their idols, he is an angel on stage as well as off stage, with passion and goodwill filled in him.

The way he performs makes the spotlight points on him, its appreciable how his nature does not change on stage, even there he takes care of me.

Sometimes I felt his eyes reciprocate mine but that was something that I wanted to see, so my mind purposely played tricks on me. I used to drink every time this reality use to hit me.

It was so difficult for me to keep my thoughts to myself, well now its not the same.

The moment I remembered my confession, my soul literally left my body, I was terrified that he might hate me for the rest of our lives but what happened was unimaginable.

"Hyung quit relaxing and come play with us" my puppy said and splattered some water towards us as he walked towards me

Jake

I cant focus on my game while he is siting at the pool side looking like a model, I keep glancing at him and even got scolded by Niki for the same

Since that night nothing is same, the look in his eyes, the soft smile on his lips.....it used be there before but not as tender and deep as it is now

The day he forgot about his confession was so weird for me, I was so confused back then, not because of his confession but because of my reaction to it

I felt some betrayal when he asked about the previous night, I was mad but more upset, agreeing to date was not my plan originally

I was confused on how and why he liked me, also conflicted because whatever he said, he said it without conscience

At that time I was sure that his words will change once he'll become sober, so when he told me that he don't remember anything, a part of me was happy that I wouldn't have to deal with some tough decision making and hurting his feelings

I got annoyed when he kept asking about what happened, I was mad because how could he say something so serious and then forget about it

I had to push him a little for him to tell me the real truth but when he confessed soberly all the annoyance and weird feeling disappeared

For some reason I understood him and his actions, I believed what he said and I also didn't wanted to question it, if it was me in his shoes I would had gone insane by then

Keeping such a big secret to yourself must be so exhausting and it was a kind of secret that he couldn't even share to anyone even if he wanted to

The pain and tears in his eyes made me realize how much I hated those feelings to be associated with a lively soul like his

We are idols and we suffer everyday but to think that I was adding to the suffering of someone whom I admired so much was really painful

Ever since my acceptance his eyes changed, it became more deep and captivating, they made me curious, to the point where I wanted to discover them even more

But more than him, I changed, my heart, it started betraying me, now every time I see him it beats so fast....so fast that it scares me that it might get tired but it never did

His mindless actions started giving me tingling feeling inside my stomach, his looks made my blood rush to my cheeks

I hope he knows what he means to me, his thoughts clouds my brain day and night, it feels like the first time I had crush

He told me that he wants me and wants me to want him too, I don't think he have to do much for me to feel that way

I walked towards him and put my hand out for him to grab it, he stood up taking the hint "are you having fun?" he asked with the most ethereal look, his hair wet and lips curved into the most beautiful smile

"Yup" I nodded with immense happiness showing on my face, he ruffled my hair and then suddenly picked me up from ground only throw me back in the water