Promises (A Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter 14

I felt my body being carried off to somewhere, possibly in the house. I kept trying to open my eyes, but every time I attempted, I would fail.

It's like I'm becoming vulnerable once again.

But I didn't want to live in the past again. I have to move forward and leave all of my troubles behind, at least that's what my mom says. But I know deep down, she's completely right. Not only for my sake, but for hers too.

I didn't know what was wrong with me. All of these mysterious headaches, emotional breakdowns, and being mentally unstable, it was like I was slowly leaving the world.

But I know that I wasn't. I couldn't. Not now.

"D-Does she need to go to the hospital?" Matthew's shaky voice quivered above me. My head was against his chest.

I felt the stomps of going down the stairs against my body. I was slowly fading away, but am completely aware.

"What happened?" Laura's voice thundered with worry. I wanted to reach out, to tell them I was okay, but I couldn't even do that. I couldn't do something so simple, everything was difficult for me.

"I-I don't know, we were just talking a-and she collapsed." His voice was still shaking; worse than before. Was he crying?

How can I hear all of this, but can't move any muscles? I could feel my chest slowly rising and falling.

I opened my mouth to say something, but something was straining me.

A warm hand placed upon my heated head. "Lay her down on the couch. Get some water, and a cold towel. She'll be okay. Kristen used to do this all the time."

"Matt, stop crying she'll be okay." A girly voice sounded. I assumed it was Kristen's.

"I'm not even c-crying, what are you talking about!" He defended.

"Matt," she said, "I know you. And I know you try to act tough, but we all have obstacles and weaknesses. I've seen you cry before. You're my little brother. I know she'll be okay. She's a very strong girl."

"Yes. She is." He sniffled.

My body was placed onto the couch.

I couldn't feel anything, I was numb. With my eyes already closed, sleep overcame me and I drifted off into a dreamless state.

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My eyes opened, and the first thing that was in my vision, was Matthew. His eyes were puffy, his face was red, his hands were trembling as they were in his lap. He looked miserable.

The lights were on, all of them. I had a glass of water next to me, and a wet towel on my forehead.

"Matt." I could manage out, but my voice was strained; weak.

His eyes anxiously landed on me.

"Oh my god."

"Huh?"

"You're actually awake."

"Yeah. I guess so."

"I thought you were never going to wake up," His hands glued to his side now.

"Why would you think that? Of course I was going to wake up." I slowly sat up to look at him much clearly. The cold towel dropped into my lap.

"Well." His eyes looked everywhere, but me. His hands began to tremble again. What was going on in that head of his? "I thought and remembered what you told me about you the other day. What you've been through. I just. . . I just thought that I was. . . god this is going to sound stupid and desperate. . but I thought I was going to lose you." His tears came to a stop.

I reached out. My heart was aching for him. I didn't want him to think that way. I didn't want him to think negative thoughts like I always did to bring myself down. I couldn't let that happen.

"You will not lose me, I will stay right here forever, for you." I couldn't believe I was actually saying this.

"Do you promise?" He reached out his pinky. I nodded and intertwined my pinky with his, "I promise."

"Please don't break this promise Arabella." He pleaded.

"I won't. Some promises aren't meant to be broken." I smiled. He wiped his face, and smiled, even though I could only imagine what was really going through that head of his.

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oh my gosh, I'm so excited to get back on board with this story!

I'm honestly so sorry about my absence. I had to take a needed/personal break. But I think I'm back for good, it depends.

Sorry about the short chapter! haha just wanted to get something up for you all.

ily guys sooooooooooo much. hehe
xoxo
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