DreamSMP Imagines

Feel It Too | Anyone

This is meant to be you speaking to them for those of you who are confused. You can imagine this is whoever you would like it to be.

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How could I feel this way? After everything you've done for me. The way you've loved me and cared for me for so long. And the way that I return the favor is by falling out of love?

It doesn't make sense. I still love you with all of my heart. So, why is it that I don't feel as I did before? Why is it that the feeling in my chest has faded?

Maybe it's the way you look at me now. A look of faded passion. You are losing the feeling as well. You're just too stubborn to admit it.

The look on your face now shows how stubborn you are. Anger and sadness in one.

"What do you mean you're falling out of love?" my eyes begin to sting at your tone. So heartbroken. So filled with betrayal.

I take a deep breath. I don't want to have this conversation, but I can't hide it any longer. "It's exactly like I said." I don't dare look you in the eyes. I'll begin to cry if I do.

"When did you decide this? Where is this even coming from?" the questions I have been dreading.

"About a month ago. I wasn't sure then, so I gave it time. I realized earlier today that nothing has changed since then."

I blink away the tears that begin to form. I shouldn't be the one crying right now.

"I can change! Anything that you want, I'll do it!" I shake my head.

"No. You shouldn't have to change yourself for me."

You grasp my hands. "Please tell me this is some kind of joke. Look me in the eyes and tell me you're not making this up."

I can't look at you without tears pouring down my face. But I make this an exception. My eyes lock with yours and your expression is enough to make me want to stop this whole conversation.

"No. You're not serious." my gaze connects with the floor but you gently grab my face to make me look at you. "Please. Just look at me. I don't care if you cry. I don't care if you scream. Just look at me."

My mouth can't form any words to say to you. I don't want to do this to you but you deserve the truth. "I love you, Y/n. Don't you love me too?"

His words are enough to send the tears gushing down my face. "Of course I love you. I will always love you. I'm just not sure I'm ... In love with you anymore."

"Well I'm in love with you–"

"No." I can't let you lie to yourself.

The look on your face shows that of offence. Now you know I've caught on. "What do you mean "no"? I am in love with you. I always have been."

"No, you haven't. I see the way you look at me now. It's changed. You're falling out of love as well."

You look at me as if I've lied. But I haven't. I know you all too well.

"You're wrong! You're everything to me! I'm in love with you. I have been for years!" you're attempting to convince yourself, but it's not going to work.

"You're lying to yourself. Look me in the eyes and tell me that you're still in love with me. Tell me that you haven't lost that feeling too."

The look in your eyes tells me that it's just as faded as mine and you know it. You're lying to yourself in attempt to save something that's already half gone.

Tears begin to fall rapidly from both of our eyes. My hand instinctively reaches up to wipe your tears away. You grab my hand and pull it closer.

"See. We still care for each other. There has to be love for each other somewhere in our hearts." you're reaching. Grabbing at anything you can to change our minds.

You lean forward and place your forehead against mine. "Maybe somewhere." I want to be in love with you. I've loved you so much that before it felt like not being in love with you was impossible.

"I don't want to lose you, Y/n." your mutter is covered by a choked sob. I hate seeing you like this.

Pulling you into a hug seems like the only right thing to do. "You don't have to worry about that. I'm not going anywhere."

Sitting here with you in my arms makes me think of everything I'm going to miss. I don't want this. I want to love you. I want to hold you. I want to be here when you're sad, happy, or even angry like we always have been for each other.

I don't want it to end.

"I don't want it to end."

My words cause your head to shoot up from my shoulder. The look in your bloodshot eyes shows hope.

"It doesn't have to end. We can keep trying. W-We can try everything until we can't stand each other. I just want to know that this feeling is real. I want to know if I'm really falling out of love. I want to know if you are really falling out of love." you ramble on and on.

"Maybe this is how it's supposed to be. Maybe it was always meant to end here. May–"

You lift a hand to cover my mouth. The look in your eyes hurts me to see. "Please don't. Just lay with me."

"But–"

You've heard the last of my words. "Please?" your eyes plead.

"Alright then." you wrap your arms around me and we sit in silence for hours. Not falling asleep nor growing tired of each other. But thinking and realizing.

You feel it too.

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June 10th, 2023